Just...I dunno. It's a bit shit, isn't it?

Hey cuteness

DiscoballStallion said:

Erm. Alright there?

You should ask the next homeless person you see.

Spookymuffin said:

Life's not bad at all. At least you're not ugly.

brilliant.

DiscoballStallion said:

I am. It's fucking horrible. I shut everything away after it all got so bad, I thought it was all gone - all the problems - but I can feel those fucks climbing back up. That whole worry, that whole self-consciousness. Why the fuck am I the only one experiencing this? Why aren't my friends?

sometimes life sucks. that's just the way it is.

Spookymuffin said:

oh, honey. LOTS of people experience it. And I must say it's particularly brutal at your age. It gets better over time.

Spookymuffin said:

You are so emo.
Are you sure you're not gay?

DiscoballStallion said:

Just because his fanbase on the org is predominantly gay, that doesn't mean he's Robbie Williams.

DiscoballStallion said:

I'm gonna be honest, I'm really not finding you funny any more.

kidelrich said:

Please. Somebody get him a tight ass track jacket, some spray on jeans, and chucks already

DiscoballStallion said:

I have two of those items.

Ben isn't gay!

CinisterCee said:

You sure brought that up unprovoked.

kidelrich said:

Well aren't you just the fags bags....

CinisterCee said:

I can vouch for this. After he jerked me off, we agreed it was only gay if you did anal.

CarrieMpls said:

Thanks

You're a truly great person Carrie.
I kinda wanna tell you all things, how I felt and such...I did it once before, but it's weird, and it gets me nowhere, since I don't even know where I'm heading with these thoughts.
One thing's for sure; I fucking hate being single, and I fucking hate being this fucking sexually-pent up. It's infuriating. Even worse when you've got 15 year old girls who wanna take you to bed but you have to much of a moral conscience to chase them. I'm 18 this october... I'm still a fucking virgin.
It sounds like that's my issue, but there's so much more...so much more. It's just that - well, if I can find someone that loves me for who I am, I think that'll put everything else at bay for a while...gimme more time to deal with the other issues...gimme more self-confidence to ignore half of them, or for them to even go away. It's all kinda fucked up. Sometimes I don't know where my head is. It's got really bad before and I've hurt myself. It's not nice.
Paradoxically right now I both feel fine, and miserable. It's a pathetic fallacy.

kidelrich said:

you crack me the fuck up!

CinisterCee said:

Whilst I can't help but wonder why you keep bringing this up whenever something gay-related crops up around me, I must thank you for highlighting the fact that I do indeed prefer pussy.

Spookymuffin said:

This sounds retarded, but sometimes you need to just forget about your problems. My problem is I get obsessed with my faults. Less thinking is what I recommend. Look where it's gotten W.

kidelrich said:

That's what I tried. It's worked since January until now. I can't let things do that sometimes; I think too much.

Spookymuffin said:

Damn. You're worse than emo. You're a teenager. Boy, I sure don't miss being one of those. Thank God that's over. I'm 23 and I'm still a virgin(ish). I have this sky high libido that drives me crazy as hell and I have yet to meet someone who can handle it. I get teenagers hitting on me ALL the time. It's SO annoying. And none of them are cute enough to go to jail over. Good luck finding someone to love you for who you are. People like that are out there but you know now you have to pretend to be who people want you to be in order for you to like them. Which sucks. It's easy as hell to be yourself yet society refuses to do it and believe that you need to change this and that because something's wrong with the way you are when in reality you're perfect as you are. I'd rather be myself and single than pretend to be what I'm not and have everybody in the world in love with me. You'll be alright. You don't want to hear it but it's the truth. And when you're my age, you'll look back and think to yourself "Why the hell was I so damn emo?"

Spookymuffin said:

I know gay people with cats.

Spookymuffin said:

There ya go, folks.

Ben

DiscoballStallion said:

thanks motherfucker. you spoke my language. I will never change. Ever. I'll still crack sick jokes, I'll still want really hardcore sex.

By the way, what's "virgin(ish)"? Did you stick it in and then pull out and run away?

CinisterCee said:

hi there stalker.

Spookymuffin said:

Everything but penetration. I'm saving that. That's special.
BTW...my ex's name is Ben. Which is weird because there's this guy I have a crush on who looks like an actor who plays a character named Ben on a t.v. show....The ironicalness of my life.

Spookymuffin said:

First off- good for you, that you're not taking advantage of 15 year old girls you don't care much for. You're being true to yourself and not harming other people. As much as it sucks, you're doing SUCH a good thing for yourself.

And as for the rest, I've been in similar places that you are now. And I know how you feel. But there's always gonna be that one thing that you feel like, if I can JUST get this in order, everything else will work themselves out. And that ONE thing is usually the thing we have the least control over. Best thing to do is take inventory of what you DO have control over and make sure you're taking positive steps in those areas. I'd like to say the rest will fall into place, but it isn't always that easy. For me, though, just knowing I'm working on some of the things that are bothering me, helps me get through the shit things that I'm not happy with yet. ya know?

And you can talk to me any time. I don't want you hurting yourself.