first let me say thank you



second, you will be happy to know that i was able to track down my old doctor, thank goodness... i described the events at the ER, and how freaked out i was... and that my current doctor was very concerned and talking about illnesses that frightened me to think of



he almost started to laugh when i told him what she said....



he informed me that it is only the anxiety disorder that we are dealing with and that being in that situation (in the ER with people comming to medicate me) is exactly what we delt with years ago...


so, long story short - nothing has really changed, except that i have to go back on the meds or, it will continue to bother me and i will add additional fears to the ones i already have...


hes a great doctor, we are making an appointment when he begins changing over to his own office on may 20 for hopefully sometime in the beginning of june.... i will travel about an hour and 45 minutes to see him, but, its worth it in the end because i trust him, and i will listen to what he has to say...


so starts the journey of repair on my system and my fear.... and for anyone who has ever had panic attacks or panic disorder, you know this sucks... is to get myself back on the meds and under control. but, i am very thankful that this is all im dealing with, the other doctor scared the crap outta me !!!!!

valium 3 times a day for at least a month



who else suffers from panic ?????

in the end we are the only ones in control of our own well being

just keep in mind that if things are not coming along
as you would like it's ok to push and be your own advocate.
and the other medication fear?? the other infection?? how is that?
here's to no more secrets from our caregivers


i'm going to call... i swear

good to hear you are doing something to take care of yourslf

i had one mild panic attack ( i guess ) ...one time yrs ago when i had attended 5 funerals in one month of people i knew personally

i was laying in bed and was hit with this profound great fear of waking up next to TR...who dide in his sleep

( one of the funerals was an older male friend that passed in his sleep)

it was quite a scary feeling

My youngest brother developed panic attacks about 3 years ago. It was just awful. The most confident, happy guy on earth became a complete wreck, calling me at work all the time to talk him thru his attacks. I even had to take him to the ER when his resting heart rate suddenly went out of control high while we were at the movies. He was convinced he was dying. It was really scary to see.

He was on medication for a few months and went thru a lot of cognitive therapy. Now he gets the occasional one but he has techniques to get thru it on his own and is 100% meds free.

I'm sorry to hear that you are going thru this.
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i get extreme anxiety around final exams. during the exam i'm okay but for the days before and after the exam i'm ridden with anxiety. it's terrible. it there is a subject that i'm especially nervoud about, i may start to freak out in the middle of the exam but i'm always able to calm myslef down and continue.

even thouh i hate the anxiety, i do extremely well on my finals. still, i'd rather be more like a normal person.

I freak out sometimes in intersections that look familiar like the one I was almost killed in. Whenever I go to the hospital and they attempt to sedate me (I was in a coma once and fear I won't wake up). Phone calls in the middle of the night. I no longer answer the phone unless I know who it is. Even then they know better to call me with bad news and stuff I cannot help or change. And some military stuff I do not wish to name. It has been kicking my butt the last two years. This type of stuff never really bothered me before. Then again, I am/was very good at blocking things out!

i cant spell well tonight

thank you ladies


i think there is a lot of panic attack issues these days with many people.


justerin, i bet it would be a difficult thing to go through watching someone you love suffer with this, it is incredibly scary and all consuming when you are the person in the middle of it..... im sorry to say i have probably leaned on a few folks pretty hard while in that stage its great that you were there for him.


mach, that sounds like an incredibly hard month sweetie im sorry you had to go through that, and the feelings you felt sound horrible.... it is a scary feeling indeed


emm, what can i say girl youre a doll.... thank you for keeping up with me and all my issues lol. things are going pretty well for right now, im on my way back to the surgeon next friday and i will know more then. hopefully, i'll be able to get this part of life under control so that when hes ready to do whatever hes gonna do, im calm and open to his suggestions. unfortunately, at this point, i dont think i would be ready to hear what he has to offer me, because i cant get ahold of myself. thank you again and MAKE THAT CALL !

You're on your way, sugar!

I've had a few panic attacks in my life...they're horrible. But, one of my best friends suffered with a panic disorder (social anxiety disorder) for YEARS...it was so bad she wasn't able to go out and do the things she wanted to and even had trouble with school and work. Now, she's on medication and gone through therapy and she's a complete social butterfly!

jasmine, sounds like a very stressful time im glad youre getting through it and doing so well, i wish for you that this could be easier



SSE... girl that stuff sounds HORRIBLE !!!!! im so sorry that you are having to go through this, they sound like very hard issues to deal with by themselves, i cant imagine having to deal with each one keep your head up, and if you ever need to talk, im here for ya

applekisses said:

thats fantastic


its amazing to me what starts out as a small fear can completely take over your life and cripple your ability to function as the person you once were - or want to be its also amazing to me that if i dont treat this problem now, i will face MORE fears and MORE intense panic attacks along the way

im so glad she got herself the help and is feeling better now i know first hand that it is an extremely frustrating feeling being trapped in a world like this


oh, and anything that makes apple call me 'sugar' .... im all good with so i must be doing the right thing

I stay medicated! I would hate to be at work when I am armed and freak out! That would be bad for everyone around me!

ShySlantedEye1 said:

girl i cant even imagine.....


keep that medication near !

nakedpianoplayer said:

You're doing the best thing for you! You're gonna be fine

I would purposely leave my medication at work with the description for it's use. I know my boss is nosey ass hell, so I wanted him to read it. I would say stuff just to scare him. I feel them coming most of the time and try to go some where away from folks or I'll just go home to chill.

and butterfli25, i know you havent seen this yet.... but, a personal thank you to you too for your kind words and your loving friendship you are a fantastic, beautiful, strong soul.... and you have helped me



pippet... honey, i want to thank you for your words, and im sorry i didnt follow through... please dont be angry with me, i tried - i really did you are a bright spot for me and i enjoy your friendship very much, i look forward to seeing you this summer and we'll catch up for sure



bluesbaby... girl, what can i say ? thank you for so many times you've been there..... and thank you for understanding my life has been better for many years with you in it, and you have offered a loving heart and a great laugh so many times.... thank you my friend

ShySlantedEye1 said:

well good for you scaring the boss his dumb ass shouldnt have been in your shit !


and i agree, being able to feel them comming on is definately a plus... i used to be able to do that, but lately, i've lost that and have gotten stung one to many times in a surprise attack

I have lived with anxiety & depression since childhood. It is hard when your body over reacts to anxiety and it hinders your daily life.
I find journaling, talk therapy & exercise help.
I am so sorry to hear what you are going through- I am sure so many of us can relate. We are here for you if you need to chat!

i was diagnosed with depression a long time ago and before that post-traumatic stress disorder. unfortunately i received a more difficult diagnosis later on which i think some people here are aware about, but i don't really want to disclose it again because plenty of people are uneducated about the reality of it. and no, i am not insane... at least, not most of the time, hardy har.

in any case, i very much know what it's like and i empathise -- anxiety is one of the symptoms i get and it can be terrible and debilitating... i am not much fun without my meds unfortunately, though my dosage is now very low.


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JPW said:

charlottegelin said:

ta, cha

nakedpianoplayer said:

nakedpianoplayer said:

you are more than welcome huny don't underestimate your place in other people's lives either though, you have helped me through the rough times too.

butterfli25 said:

im always here when you need to talk...

yes I know

Nekkid, Im sorry I dont have the time or energy to read the thread but with regard to your first post -

Im glad you feel calmer about it now, and that you have a doctor you feel comfortale with

I wouldnt worry about the valium always seems scary to have to go on medication at all to me, but youll be better off in the end.

s always!!!

susannah said:

thank you hun

nakedpianoplayer said:

whats with the yearbook signing? I love you too, npp. We have been down a lot of roads...speaking of roads, I have panic attacks--mild ones, but still panic attacks, on highways. I rarely drive them, and if I do accomplish it, it is a huge step

oh my...

so many people have had these. i have. now it's kind of a distant memory. there will come a day, perhaps, when all is past and you'll be proud of having progressed to the point where you are today...

bisous.

bluesbaby said:

hey, it was an emotional day, what can i say ????


that road thing ??? thats a problem, theres a lot of road between you and me and one of us is gonna HAVE to drive it - i cant wait to see that lil one