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 thank you so much sweetheart 
youre a gem  One of the best days of my life... http://prince.org/msg/100/291111
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nakedpianoplayer said: you know, the crazy thing was that when i was in the ER, and that guy and his helper were comming at me, just as the panic attack started.... when i was trying to tell them why we couldnt do this, they were walking towards me, their faces were actually changing.... hard to explain, but its like their faces looked like long tubes of some kind, the wall behind them got all blurry, their voices changed - like they were talking through a tube or something.... i kept thinking "i cant breathe" and i was getting hotter and hotter the closer they got.... my arms were so heavy....
it truely was like i was totally out of control - they only thing that got them to back off me was when i said im going to throw up. when they left, i was able to try and calm down a bit before the doctor came back in.... my poor mother was in shock, she had no idea i was that afraid of this ... that might have been related to the degree of infection and fever your body was dealing with... but who said humans were rational? we do irrational things all the time you are a good momma and you will do what you need to do because that's what good mommas do
and nakie you have to be honest with your doctor... she is the best one to decide what needs to be done for your well being   She couldn't stop crying 'cause she knew he was gone to stay | |
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nakedpianoplayer said: madsex6969 said: Oh honey...
... I'm so sorry. I hope you will be ok.... I love you and I think that you have more on your mind than just your health. You have to think about yourself too. Please feel better soon.  and  thanks sweetie
you have a very good point there  there is much more going on.....
this SUCKS ! I think you are half way there as you know that there is something wrong, I would go and get some help whether it be with someone to talk to or professional help. My prayers are with you | |
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emm said: nakedpianoplayer said: you know, the crazy thing was that when i was in the ER, and that guy and his helper were comming at me, just as the panic attack started.... when i was trying to tell them why we couldnt do this, they were walking towards me, their faces were actually changing.... hard to explain, but its like their faces looked like long tubes of some kind, the wall behind them got all blurry, their voices changed - like they were talking through a tube or something.... i kept thinking "i cant breathe" and i was getting hotter and hotter the closer they got.... my arms were so heavy....
it truely was like i was totally out of control - they only thing that got them to back off me was when i said im going to throw up. when they left, i was able to try and calm down a bit before the doctor came back in.... my poor mother was in shock, she had no idea i was that afraid of this ... that might have been related to the degree of infection and fever your body was dealing with... but who said humans were rational? we do irrational things all the time you are a good momma and you will do what you need to do because that's what good mommas do
and nakie you have to be honest with your doctor... she is the best one to decide what needs to be done for your well being thanks emm
and, you are right, i really should tell them that i was unable to take the other script  man, they are really gonna be pissed at me...
as far as the level of infection going on, i was told that i was running a nasty risk by not allowing them to take care of the area... im not sure if she just told me that so i would let her do it or not, but, it worked lol. i'll be fine, i've been going through this now for so many years  its just that when this one came, i knew it was really bad.
oh, heres the fucked up part i forgot to say... while i was in there and the surgeon is cutting this thing open for the second time, he looks at me and says, yes, i see the other problem (that being the original disease that i have talked about before) - then this fool says, 'i think this may be a SECOND condition all its own'  i looked at him and said, 'well, thats fair - i should have two i suppose' 
kinda made him laugh  what the hell are ya gonna do ? i try to keep things light and cheery when im not flippin the fuck out and crying 
anyway, thanks again honey One of the best days of my life... http://prince.org/msg/100/291111
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oldpurple said: nakedpianoplayer said: thanks sweetie
you have a very good point there there is much more going on.....
this SUCKS ! I think you are half way there as you know that there is something wrong, I would go and get some help whether it be with someone to talk to or professional help. My prayers are with you thank you honey i appreciate that  One of the best days of my life... http://prince.org/msg/100/291111
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I hope you're feeling better soon. I can partly identify with you as I have some irrational panic issues that are causing me problems. Stay strong sweetheart. | |
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Fauxie said: I hope you're feeling better soon. I can partly identify with you as I have some irrational panic issues that are causing me problems. Stay strong sweetheart.
thanks sweetie it is rough, but, somehow i will find a way to get around this....
its tough when in a situation like this YOU are your biggest problem One of the best days of my life... http://prince.org/msg/100/291111
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