I just got back from a long visit with Drew and he's fine. And I do mean fine. He's sad and wants to come home- being all whiny like a child "but I wanna come home. I'll feel better home." Or I love this one, "Just tell them to write a script for all this (pointing to IV drips) and let's go!" He cried a bunch, but I didn't. I told him today was a day to celebrate! That he slept during the sad times, that everyone was happy and why was he sad. He said it was because he wanted to come home. A thousand times, we hugged, kissed and said I love you.

God gave me a mircale. The same doctor who told me early Monday morning that Drew was brain dead and going to die looked me in the eye and said "there's no explination for this." When Drew entered the ER he had 6.8% of "dead juice" in his system and 7.6% of "dead juice" is dead dead. They told us his brain activity was at a level just before death. They told us that if he did survive he would never walk, talk, or go home- as in brain dead on life support.

And he came back! (I didn't go into it but) I told him it was a miracle he was alive and that his life had purpose. (we discussed that) I'm telling you the doctors and nurses are all smiles and laughs but they look puzzled. He came back and it wasn't meant to be- it wasn't in his cards AND HE CAME BACK. I was with him for almost 2 hours and I really think he's back to where he was the day before the heart attack. They're going to let Drew chill in the hospital for a few days (Thur-Sun) and address the heart problem Monday- if he's up to it, his doctor said there was no rush. Drew's going to be bored and hate hospital confinement. He asked me to stay with him asap and they're talking about moving him from ICU tomorrow.




He's not out of the woods- he's going to have heart surgery. So keep up the prayers.

So many people have been praying- 6 churches, his doll groups, the prince.org family, friends, family and me. Something happened and the doctors can't explain it. Actually he said children who fall in freezing water while ice skating sometimes snap back like this- but Drew's an adult who had a massive heart attack, just had brain surgery 7 months ago and wasn't in freezing water!


Something HUGE happened and I thank you all for that!
















The Past...


He's had a massive heart attack and don't expect him to live.

Please pray.


update:
Thank you all, I still can't believe this. I'm in shock. Drew was moved from ER to ICU. He has blood pressure and a heart beat on his own, but his breathing is controled by a respirator. He wouldn't be able to breathe without the machine. He was dead on arrival when we got there. They were able to revive him but Drew's brain was without blood or oxygen long enough that they suppect massive brain damage. We were told that if he does survive, he would never speak or walk again and would probably never come home.

We're waiting on a brain doctor specialist to give a diagnosis, only then will we know the extend of the damage. His parents and I have discussed terminating life support once all options have been exhausted. Know one has said it yet, but I think he may be a vegetable.

Guys I'm dying over here. This is killing me and I don't know how I'm going to deal with this. Sorry for being hysterical, but I'm being stronge for those who are around me and I can't keep it up.

This April would have marked our 11 year anniversary. 11 short years, we were supposed to be together much much longer. I can't believe our time is coming to an end. I can't believe this. I can't believe it, I can't.
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update:
Thank you God!

Drew's father just called and Drew is doing so much better than yesterday. He has brain activity. He is squeezing and releasing the nurses hand when told, he is answering questions by shaking he's head "yes" or "no" when asked. These are the things the staff wanted to see yesterday. My friend Teresa and I agreed yesterday that throughout the day he made small improvements. Please pray for his continued success.

I was having a hard morning- being here in our home without Drew, reading the notes from everyone. Today had a painful beginning, but the suns out and things are looking up.

Thank you with all of my heart, we love you all,
Drew and Stuart
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Props for the believers! http://www.prince.org/msg/105/179309
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update:
Just got back from seeing Drew. I was jumped by the nurses at the ICU unit. They all told me that they had, even after their shifts were over, been worried about me. I held it together all day yesterday until I saw Drew in ICU and boy did I freak out. And I do mean freaked out. I have seroius fellings of guilt, it's my responsiblity to care for him and I feel as if I failed him. This is my issue, it will take time, but no one can tell me (I know you're right, I say the same for someone in my shoes) that I did my best.


Anyway, I saw Drew shortly after 12 noon. He was sedated- but with this perticular drug they are able to sedated as well as wake him within a matter of minutes. I spoke with the head nurse while we waited for Drew to wake- I told her that if they need any information that I was the one to call, that no one knew Drew as well as me. She told me she knew the deal- that if Drew was able to say himself how important we are to one another he would.

So he woke and I talked to him, he tried to get out of the bed a few times and tried to hug me twice. He wasn't able to because of the restraints. So sweet and heartbreaking at the same time. He also tried to speek and moved his lips, but he couldn't because of the respirator. The tube to the respirator was giving him trouble- but for one that's what they want and two, that's why they sedate patients on respirator. The nurse asked Drew if he was in any pain and Drew said no (shook his head "no").

He has a few complications- a little pneumonia which they are treating with antibiotics. They're going to keep him on the respirator because they can extract fluids from the lungs. So that won't come out until after the pneumonia has cleared. I'm not 100% on this, but I think that if it wasn't for the pneumonia he would be able to breath on his own. He also has some bleeding in his stomack. They aren't sure what that is, but they know it isn't related. In other words, he was addimited with this problem. He's on blood thinners but so far they haven't reacted to the bleeding in the GI tract. They have also backed off on many of the medications he was on yesterday- sorry, I'm not sure what the meds were for, but it's good news the same. Better to back off then to increase- whatever they were, they were needed for his condition yesterday and today he isn't in that condition.

They are still going to watch him over the next few days and if all goes as good as it has they will address the heart. He has a clot and a stent (filter) may need to be surgically implanted to keep it from moving. They gave him clot buster meds yesterday and they didn't have much effect. But yesterday guys was a completely different ball game. It was almost like they were giving a dead man medicine. Now that all of his functions are starting to kick, it's possible medicine may work better.

Long story short- he's doing better than yesterday. Much better. We have a long road a head of us- a lot of you don't know this, but Drew is a stubborn little son of a gun and has a strong will. And not to make light, but for all you mothers out there, Drew went in a little on the plump side so whatever weight loss he may have won't leave him frail. Oh and his coloring is great!
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update:
Okay real quick- I need to get busy with work. I saw Drew about 10:15 this morning and the nurses said that he was "much better" than yesterday. He was lightly sedated and moving around, he knew I was with him and I talked and tried to comfort him as best I could. He got active and was moving about, I told him to relax. He cried a little and tried to hug me- all very touching and sad BUT this is good. I'd rather see this than nothing at all. One of the nurses told me that Drew woke up last night and was trying to say my name, she was positive of this. I wish I would have been there but we can't always.

OH- They ran some tests and are going to try to take him off the respirator. Now, they may remove it and decide he still needs it, but the fact that the test came back good and that they are thinking of removing it is wonderful. Should the tube go back, it isn't a set back- I hope they remove it and that's that, but if not it's normal. Sometimes patients need to be slowly weaned off respirators (that was the goal on his marker board- "wean off respirator").

Guys he's doing great and thank you for the prayers- I've said it before, I'll say it forever- it's working! You guys are the best and are miracle workers! I thank God for each and everyone of you!





miracle n 1: any amazing or wonderful occurrence 2: a marvellous event manifesting a supernatural act of God.
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update:
Drew's off the respirator- breathing on his own, talking, crying, laughing, hugging...

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oh no oh no

omg

Im SO sorry. I'll be praying.

CynthiasSocks said:

You and Drew are in my thoughts. Please keep us posted as you can.

OMG...just hold on

ohhh honey, im so very sorry

my prayers are with you both

Oh no!

I'm sorry honey.

Jesus

CynthiasSocks said:

oh god no

Stu I'm thinking of you both hon

I am sorry to hear this I will be praying for you both!!!!!

Stuart, I am so so sorry to hear this.

My thoughts are with you both.

Take care and if there's anything I/we can do to help, please just ask.

baby i'm so sorry

Heavenly father I ask you to place your Angels around Drew, and Cyn. Give them strength, and understanding in this time of sadness, and uncertainty.






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Be strong.
I'm praying for both of you.

!!!I am SO sorry to hear that! I'll pray like hell for you hun!

My thoughts and prayers are with you and Drew. So sorry to hear this.

OMG OMG OMG! How horrible!!! I'm very sad now. Oh hang in there. Please keep us up to date.

I'm praying for him and for you. May He give you strength to get through this.

I am so very sorry, you and Drew (and families) are in my thoughts and prayers.

s

Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear this. You will both be in my thoughts, I will light two candles for you.

That's what my aunt died of last week - If you want to talk, orgnote me.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time

Oh my God.

Honey...please hang in there.

Please don't give up hope. There is always hope. If there is anything any of us can do to help, please ask.




Prayer To Saint Jude Thaddeus the Apostle, Patron Saint Of The Impossible Cases

GLORIOUS APOSTLE SAINT JUDE Thaddeus,
True relative
Of Jesus and Mary,
I salute you through
This Sacred Heart of Jesus!

Through his Heart
I praise and thank God
For all the graces
He has bestowed upon you.

Humbly prostrate before you
I implore you,
Through His Heart,
To look down upon me
With compassion.

Despite my poor prayer;
Let not my trust
Be confounded!
To you God has granted
The privilege of
Aiding mankind
In the most desperate cases.

Oh, come to my aid
Until I can thank you in heaven.

All my life
I will be your grateful client
Until I can thank you in heaven. Amen.

St. Jude, pray for us
And for all who invoke your aid.

Amen.

CynthiasSocks said:

Mate i am so sorry, my thoughts and to you both.

Oh no, hon! My prayers for you and Drew to get through this...

Oh no!