The last couple of months have been full of stress for me and it all culminates tomorrow.

Two and a half years ago I built the house that I had hoped my kids (one is 16 months, the other almost three years) and would grow up to graduation in. Big beautiful house in a wonderful neighborhood. I love the place, it's got all the room we'd ever need, plenty of unfinished space to mold into whatever we want. Because we built it, there are numerous personal touches we aren't going to find anywhere else.

Tomorrow I have to move my family out of it.

The reasons are many, some reasons are just bad decisions/judgements on my part, some were beyond my control, some were beyond anyones control - life happens. I've had so much stress since the day we decided to put it on the market that I haven't been completely healthy since then.

And it's not really over tomorrow, as we're moving into a cramped old rental for the next few months. At that point we hope to move into a brand new townhouse which has some of the benefits of this house at half the size and two-thirds the price, but even that is only planned to be temporary (two to four years).

I know there are people in the world with real problems (I can think of a couple in these forums), but I just needed to share as I don't really have a lot of people I can talk to...

I know you feel overwhelmed and sad. I too had to move out of the house that I thought my daughter would grow up in.....mind you, we didn't build it, but...she was born there. I planted our first Christmas tree there....we have lived in four other places since then and I've learned it's hard not to drive bye and cry....i had to learn to let go of what i worked so hard for and focus on what was truly important....my child. I found that home is where the heart is and family is wherever the address reads....._YOU_ can get through this...pick a corner in the house and cast a secret prayer on it....look at that corner everyday knowing you put yourself into this new place, in your mind....emagine you are inside that house. There are nights I wake up feeling like I'm in my old bed facing the exact way my bed would have...it's difficult and troubling...but i do understand how you feel. I wish you luck, love and heaven. I hope all goes well with the move. God bless, Sandra

be thankful you have a place to live.

I'm sorry.

But at least you're not getting braces.

Those are REAL problems friend. Best of luck on all fronts. Just remember what's important in life and roll with the rest of the punches. That's the only thing that gets me through each day.

Thank you all.

Madsex6969, yes home is where my heart is, which is wherever my kids are. I think I'll be okay with the letting go after we're gone, it's the process that is killing me.

IAintTheOne, believe me I do, as until two weeks ago, we literally did not know if we would have a place to move to as a few deals had already fell apart. This rental is a last minute thing I found through a guy at work.

CarrieMpls, I've never had braces, but best of luck to you. I did have all my wisdom teeth taken out at the same time last two years ago, hope you don't have to go through that.

jerseykrs, thanks man, I am generally the type who rolls with it, but this has not been my year so far. To take my mind off of it, I think I'll go read your blog, as I hear it's f'ing rad

i am so sorry to hear this, honey.

madsex is right... home is where the heart is. as long as your family is together, you have a home.

jerseykrs said:

amyhr said:

I've been treating it like a redheaded stepchild lately, so don't be too dissappointed.



Really, I've had a bad 4 years now, don't let it break you. Find the positives and just focus on that friend.

hang in there....difficult times ahead, but joy comes in the morning

jerseykrs said:

OMG, I just read your blog entry about bringing your daughter to the dance. That is totally awsome, I can not wait until I'm doing that with my daughter. Is your other kid a girl or a boy? My second is a boy, and he's my little buddy, some mornings we just hang out and giggle...

Thank you, cborgman, butterfli25, and Romera - I think it's times like these when I just need a

amyhr said:

i got an endless supply. and an ear if you need one.

Well actually, you sound not unlike ourselves... our house burnt down 3 months ago, we're in a dinko rental (even smaller over summer - no biggie, we don't have much anyway) and probably won't be back into our place until the end of the year...

My husband and I knocked ourselves out getting that place fixed up. Now at least we have some reassurance that it'll be new & up to norms.

Hang in there...

i hear your pain. hey at least you get to own a house. i'm never going to own one due to escalating prices here.

Somethings are just meant to be.

Find happiness in your new surroundings.

The best to you, and your children.

amyhr said:

Ahhh, bonding with my daughter is one of my favorite parts of life. My son is a riot too!

hope things work out.

keep your chin up sweetie,
good things are comming for you

good luck and remember that all is as it should be ... even if we dont feel it is in the moment

i've always dreamed of building my own house. i'm sure it's hard to leave a domicile that was mainly your vision, but townhouses are nice too.

Thank you everyone, I'll be signing off soon, probably won't be back to the org till next week, but ya'll have definately helped. peace