I am not good at this- obviously!
A few days ago my mom found out the results from one of her Rotties (Heidi) x-ray. She had a large lump on her knee and they tried to treat it thinking it was part of her knee/joint problems she has had since she was a pup. The lump did not go away so they did an x-ray. It turned out to be bone cancer.
She is so beautiful and with the pain meds she is on she is getting around a little better. She is about 120 pounds so it is still hard for her at times even with the pain meds. The bone cancer she has is fast growing so my mom decided a few days ago when she got the results that she would have her put to rest before she got too bad. She did not want to wait until it attacked an organ or wait until she could not get up to use the bathroom.
So, this morning at 8:30 am my mom and my aunt are talking Heidi to the vet to have her put to rest.
I have been crying all morning and I need to get ready for work but I keep crying...
I am sad that I will never see Heidi again, she was like a big bear. She loved hugs and gave big kisses. She was like a sister to me since I do not have any siblings. She is 7 yrs old and her birthdate is the same as mine so she will not make it to see 8 yrs old.
My mom has another Rottie who is a little younger and smaller and really my mom's favorite. Heidi was my stepdad's buddy but of coarse my mom took care of both of them and is very close to both of them as we all are to our pets.
Well- I just had to get all of that out before work. I hope I can hold it together today.
I have such a hard time saying goodbye and dealing with death. It really worries me because I have 3 dogs of my own.
I am hoping that writing about it will help me this morning.


& for Heidi and my mom and Megan- Heidi's other sister.

that's an awful shame.

I am sorry hun

Thanks ladies

I'm sorry It's always difficult. I believe it's the humane thing to do.I think they know you're trying to help them.

Don't let anyone make you feel ashamed for your feelings... our animals are real "people," and irreplacable... we need this time to mourn.

Cry as much as you need to! At least you have the consolation of giving her a decent burial... Not all of us have gotten that chance, with our dear animals.

I'm sorry you lost a dear member of your family. I hope that now she is at peace and not suffering.

sorry to hear that

I went through this in the past with cats and birds. terrible. time will heal

am I the only guy to post in this thread? what's that, a women only thingy?

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Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry for you and your family. I can't imagine something so awful; I know how much pets mean to a family, and I'm sorry for your loss.

I also don't have any siblings and grew up with a dog who was like my sister. I was the one who took care of her in the last few weeks of her life and it was incredibly hard to let her go.

it's hard to let go but it would be equally as hard to watch heidi suffer. Heidi will live in your heart forever.

I love dogs so much! I'm afraid to get one of my own because of eventually having to let go. i hate letting go

shanti0608 said:

Dancelot said:

course not!
when my boyfriend's cat got run over, he was beside himself - wouldn't let me come and visit, he wanted to be with his mum instead.

Thank you everyone. I just spoke with my mom after I got home from work. She is doing alright. She said the vets office was great. She said the room was beautiful and they had candle lit, blankets and pillows on the floor. She said it was better then she expected it to be. She said Heidi laid down and did not try to get up. Usually when she would see a needle she would freak and run. My mom said she was so calm today and just seemed to accept it and seemed to be ready.
My mom is going to take her ashes up north to Delaware and relaese them on Rehobeth Beach and have a ceremony for her with my aunts & uncle. I am going to put together something like a baloon or bottle for her to release during the ceremony with our memories of Heidi in it.

Thanks so much for your kind words everyone- your the best!

Aww. . . it's such a hard thing. Take good care of yourselves, yeah?

Rotties (I have one, btw) are very prone to bone cancer, and if it goes on too long, it's an awful way to go. It was good of your mom to prevent that suffering.

shanti0608 said:

but still

SeattleInvasion said:

Thanks for pointing that out. I know it was so tough for my mom to do it before she got really ill but she wanted her to go with some dignity and not to suffer. The vet said it would spread very quickly so she did not want to wait too long.
She went peacefully..
Still does not help us left behind here on earth but we will get through it. I cannot imagine how it is going to be the next time I go to see my mom and not have Heid greet me at the door. She was so awnry, she would grab my mom's pant leg and yank on it. She did not act like she knew she was an 120 pound Rottie either. She was just a big bear. I loved to lay on the floor and hug her, when I would stop squeezing her she would growl until I hugged her tighter. I will miss her big kisses too.

It always hurts when a pet dies.