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What is the most scared you have been I am pretty scared at the moment. Someone i love is going through some health issues and i am scared.
That got me thinking about the most scared i have ever been and i think it was the day my Mum phoned me in a hotel room in Copenhagen. I remember it so clearly. I was laying there having just woken, I had a full day ahead of me including a presentation to the Danish government and some investors and my room phone rung.Even before i picked it up i was scared....I knew who it was and why they were calling, I didn't want to pick it up because if i did then it was a fact..... I did and it was my Mum....she said "Grandad died in his sleep last night" I was scared before but those words made me scared for the future. So c'mon spill. When were you most scared? PS  RIP Francis William Peter Selden I miss you | |
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When my dad disappeaered for several days, just gone without anyone knowing anything...left his stuff behind, too...scared the hell out of me.  | |
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The days between my mother having surgery and her dying
The days between my Girlfriend collapsing and her dying and my Heart attack and that night...with diminishing fear afterwards They were the worst equally so... That's Life....   I have a firm grip on reality...Maybe just not this reality   |
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long story, but i'll try to make it short:
when i lived in NYC, a very good friend asked if i wanted to take over her apartment in chinatown. the rent was cheap, it was a cozy little space, it was close to work and it was FINALLY a chance to affordably live by myself in new york. i said yes, met with the landlord, everything seemed perfect and legit and wonderful...for a day or two. then, i started getting threatening notes and visits from people telling me i didn't belong in the building. as it turned out, the building was a government-subsidized rent-controlled building, and my "landlord" was renting to me illegally, and all the paperwork i'd filled out as a tenant was bogus. every day got more insane, including one day where my landlord called me out of the blue and told me i had two hours to pack all my belongings, because they were going to move me to another apartment once it got dark. and i started to learn all kinds of crazy shit about my "landlord", like he smuggled parrots from south america to sell illegally, and that there was a whole ring of illegal sublets that involved some kind of weird polish mafia or something... the whole thing was fucking insane, and i still thank my lucky stars that my friends pulled me out of that situation and helped me find a really nice apartment in a really nice brooklyn neighborhood with a really sweet roommate, where i lived above a cop and his hairdresser brother. it didn't get much safer than that!  | |
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During my c-section, when the surgeon was going really pale and sweating and it felt like they were rummaging around very roughly in a sock drawer - my whole body was being shaken from side to side. I grabbed the hand of the anaesthetist and said "I'm really scared" and he did not say anything  My husband fainted and it was very quiet in the theatre.
I thought I was going to die, I thought my baby might be dead already. But it was all OK in another minute as they managed to pull my son's head back out of my pelvis, and in another minute I heard him screaming. | |
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charlottegelin said: During my c-section, when the surgeon was going really pale and sweating and it felt like they were rummaging around very roughly in a sock drawer - my whole body was being shaken from side to side. I grabbed the hand of the anaesthetist and said "I'm really scared" and he did not say anything
My husband fainted and it was very quiet in the theatre.
I thought I was going to die, I thought my baby might be dead already. But it was all OK in another minute as they managed to pull my son's head back out of my pelvis, and in another minute I heard him screaming. damn I felt that! All is well now so love and blessings to you and yours!
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Kissmequick said: charlottegelin said: During my c-section, when the surgeon was going really pale and sweating and it felt like they were rummaging around very roughly in a sock drawer - my whole body was being shaken from side to side. I grabbed the hand of the anaesthetist and said "I'm really scared" and he did not say anything
My husband fainted and it was very quiet in the theatre.
I thought I was going to die, I thought my baby might be dead already. But it was all OK in another minute as they managed to pull my son's head back out of my pelvis, and in another minute I heard him screaming. damn I felt that! All is well now so love and blessings to you and yours!
I tell you what though, it took me months to get over it. Every time I was alone, like in the shower, I would think about it and just  | |
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mdiver said: I am pretty scared at the moment. Someone i love is going through some health issues and i am scared.
That got me thinking about the most scared i have ever been and i think it was the day my Mum phoned me in a hotel room in Copenhagen. I remember it so clearly. I was laying there having just woken, I had a full day ahead of me including a presentation to the Danish government and some investors and my room phone rung.Even before i picked it up i was scared....I knew who it was and why they were calling, I didn't want to pick it up because if i did then it was a fact..... I did and it was my Mum....she said "Grandad died in his sleep last night" I was scared before but those words made me scared for the future. So c'mon spill. When were you most scared? PS RIP Francis William Peter Selden I miss you hope they get better soon hun ....for me it was watching my nana die ....and waiting for some news that changed my life... my c sections would be up there to charlottegelin (ur experience sounds very similar to mine...Taylor got stuck and the surgeon virtually had his knee on the table trying to yank her out ) | |
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About three weeks ago I was very hung-over.....I was in a ski-resort in Switzerland, Verbier, where I had never been before. So me & my buddy went up the mountain, it was beautiful weather.....we didn't know the slopes.....so we we just went somewhere. Now my buddy & I, we are good skiers, I'm not going to be modest about it. Anyhow, we got to a slope, it was sooooo fuckin' steep!!!! Really, I had never seen anything like it before!
So there I was, hungover, suffering a lack of sleep, on top of the steepest mofo slope I had ever seen.....with big-ass moguls.....Yea, I was kinda scared.....pretty much! boring story.....not scared enough.... | |
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September 11, 2001. | |
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lovemachine said: September 11, 2001.
I'm surprised no-one else has said this too. | |
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About 3 weeks ago, actually.
I'd spent all day over a group of friends' house when, last minute, they all decided to go out for the night. It was supposed to be a 'quiet' one so I wasn't exactly dressed to the 9's. There was no way I was going out like that - and they don't live near me - so a friend and I had to rush for the train back to where I live. The train was arriving in ten minutes. The train station WAS ten minutes' away. So we had to leg it.
Anyway, I've always considered myself to be a reasonably fit person. For someone who doesn't do much exercise, I've always been in pretty good shape. I've never eaten more healthily, gone out less, drunk less, etc etc.. Maybe I've just always taken my health for granted. I should add that I'm also one of the least hypochondriacs you'll ever meet. My leg has to be virtually falling off before I go to the doctor's. I know plenty of people who get a sniffle and they're straight in casualty. That's not me. Anyway, we started running for this train - and made it - but I HAVE NEVER FELT SO OUT OF BREATH IN MY LIFE. I COULDN'T breathe. I've always been fit as a fiddle - no respiratory problems or anything - but I honestly thought I was going to die there and then. I could hardly stand and - when we got on the train - I thought that was it. What people thought the guy gasping for breath at the bottom of the train was doing, I don't know. But Stuart, my mate, said you could see the sheer panic written over my face. And the more I panicked, the less I could breathe. It wasn't helping. It was an absolutely terrifying experience. The only thing I remember was thinking "PLEASE don't die on the Llanbradach to Cardiff train, that's all I need!". I thought I was going to be ruining a lot of passengers' nights out that night.
Anyway, the long and short of it is that I had a chest X-ray the other week and, although I've had no results back yet, it's probably asthma. Weirdly, I know two people - both my age, who also never had any symptoms before - develop asthma within the last year. So I'll find out soon but, based on what people have told me, that's what it's likely to be. 
It's NOT the scariest thing that'll ever happen to anyone, I agree, but it's forced me to question a lot of things over the last few weeks. I've discovered I'm not quite as invincible as I like to think, for a start. So I have to take things a bit easier for a while. But, hey, shit happens. And maybe it was Mother Nature's way of giving me a prod. 
So I have things I need to address as a result but only good can come of it. 
As for you, mdiver, I hope the person you care about gets a lot better soon. What a good friend yu must be; they are lucky to have someone so concerned. Try not to worry too much and be there as much as you can, as I'm sure you will be.
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charlottegelin said: lovemachine said: September 11, 2001.
I'm surprised no-one else has said this too. i felt a lot of things on september 11, but scared wasn't one of them. i think i felt more resigned than scared on that day, as far as my own feelings of safety were concerned. i was more worried for my friends in NYC than anything else. | |
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Anx said: charlottegelin said: I'm surprised no-one else has said this too. i felt a lot of things on september 11, but scared wasn't one of them. i think i felt more resigned than scared on that day, as far as my own feelings of safety were concerned. i was more worried for my friends in NYC than anything else. I felt scared for the future and for our country moreso then my own safety. I mean I live in MN so I felt reasonably sure that we weren't a target that day. | |
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lovemachine said: Anx said: i felt a lot of things on september 11, but scared wasn't one of them. i think i felt more resigned than scared on that day, as far as my own feelings of safety were concerned. i was more worried for my friends in NYC than anything else. I felt scared for the future and for our country moreso then my own safety. I mean I live in MN so I felt reasonably sure that we weren't a target that day. i knew things were going to be different. i knew we were going to be a culture of heightened scrutiny. i was kinda bugged out about that, mainly because i didn't know how far it was going to go or how much the government would abuse it. i guess i did have a little bit of fear that 9/11 would turn america into a full-on orwellian nightmare. but i don't know if what i felt was fear, cynicism or just good ol' paranoia. | |
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Anx said: lovemachine said: I felt scared for the future and for our country moreso then my own safety. I mean I live in MN so I felt reasonably sure that we weren't a target that day. i knew things were going to be different. i knew we were going to be a culture of heightened scrutiny. i was kinda bugged out about that, mainly because i didn't know how far it was going to go or how much the government would abuse it. i guess i did have a little bit of fear that 9/11 would turn america into a full-on orwellian nightmare. but i don't know if what i felt was fear, cynicism or just good ol' paranoia. I was heavily pregnant at the time, I thought it was the end of the world, and thought what the hell am I doing having babies in the end times. | |
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I think the most scared I have ever been was when I was 5 or 6 years old. My cousin and I were giving each other rides on my bike when out of nowhere came this homeless looking old man. He said "Come here." and ran after us. He was kind of stumbling around. My cousin ran and I rode my bike as fast as I could towards my house. When we got inside. I was sooooo scared that I threw up. My parents looked outside the window and saw a man with a knife.
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Byron said: When my dad disappeaered for several days, just gone without anyone knowing anything...left his stuff behind, too...scared the hell out of me.
I can relate....about 4 years ago my older brother took missing for about two weeks. In his case it was just sheer stupidity on his part, so I won't go into detail.  looking for you in the woods tonight Switch FC SW-2874-2863-4789 (Rum&Coke) | |
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My most recent accident was pretty scary. The roads were pretty slick,my wheels locked, and I basically couldn't control my car. The road I was on was a two lane one way traffic road/ramp that led into a very busy interstate. I was in the right lane coming around a curve when it happened. The truck in the left lane that hit me was a small pick up truck, so no one was injured....thank God. Had that been an 18 wheeler or big SUV....I would've definitely been hurt badly because my car is very small. looking for you in the woods tonight Switch FC SW-2874-2863-4789 (Rum&Coke) | |
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lovemachine said: September 11, 2001.
no offense and I know it was a tragic event, but it honestly had very little effect on me personally. looking for you in the woods tonight Switch FC SW-2874-2863-4789 (Rum&Coke) | |
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I saw a lady dressed in white with a bun staring at me from the end of the hallway when I was five....she was staring at me and i went crazy.
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first  these are some really touching stories...
9/11... for sure !!! i just KNEW that was going to be the end of life as we knew it. living in kansas, i have had a few tornado scares... the one a few years ago that threw the big tree on my car in front of my house scared the shit outta me. i had to remain as calm as i could for the kids.. but when it was over i just started bawling, i've never seen ANYTHING like that
but really, i think the most scared i have ever been was shortly after my son had his tonsils out... he started hemorrhaging, my baby lost so much blood so fast. ive never felt so completely helpless in all my life. he was in the ambulance and i was so upset, the guy in there kept asking me to calm down. i told jake how much i loved him, and how much he meant to me, just what a blessing he was to my life - i felt like if this was the only chance i had, i needed him to know these things. the guy said, "really, he'll be ok...". then there was so much more blood... just huge gushes of thick, bluish-red blood.... you could SMELL metal in the air... jake started to pass out... the guy jumped up and told the driver to "hit the lights, we gotta get this kid to the hospital right now !!!!!" it was like an immediate response, i stopped everything and BEGGED God not to take my baby, i prayed so hard... then the guy says to my son, "tell your mom you love her". when i realized what he was saying, i said, NO, he will tell me tomorrow when this is over... when push came to shove i didnt want him telling me that my boy was dying. we got to the hospital and there were so many doctors and nurses on my baby i could hardly see him anymore. i kept asking if he would be ok... noone would answer me, though one woman said "we are doing everything we can" i remember walking in to look at him and then going out to the hallway and bawling my eyes out, then i would go back in and tell him everything would be ok and that i loved him...i touched him, and his skin was so cold, his lips were blue, and his face was so pale... then i would go back out and sit in the hallway to cry- i cannot tell you the feeling i had at that moment.
they called in a surgeon to do an emergency repair.... he was in the operating room for about 45 minutes. when it was over, they took him to the room to get him in his bed and the nurse said, we have a cot over here for you to sleep on mom.... i said "if its all the same with you, i am going to climb in bed with my son" i wrapped my arms around him and held him so tight... i prayed again and thanked God for saving my baby boy, i realized then that he never bled anymore since the last prayer i said in the ambulance... medicine was able to help with my boys problem, but, God fixed it for me when i asked.... noone will ever tell me any different. yeah, i believe that is the most scared i have EVER been. [Edited 1/30/06 19:05pm] One of the best days of my life... http://prince.org/msg/100/291111
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nakedpianoplayer said: first
these are some really touching stories...
9/11... for sure !!! i just KNEW that was going to be the end of life as we knew it. living in kansas, i have had a few tornado scares... the one a few years ago that threw the big tree on my car in front of my house scared the shit outta me. i had to remain as calm as i could for the kids.. but when it was over i just started bawling, i've never seen ANYTHING like that
but really, i think the most scared i have ever been was shortly after my son had his tonsils out... he started hemorrhaging, my baby lost so much blood so fast. ive never felt so completely helpless in all my life. he was in the ambulance and i was so upset, the guy in there kept asking me to calm down. i told jake how much i loved him, and how much he meant to me, just what a blessing he was to my life - i felt like if this was the only chance i had, i needed him to know these things. the guy said, "really, he'll be ok...". then there was so much more blood... just huge gushes of thick, bluish-red blood.... you could SMELL metal in the air... jake started to pass out... the guy jumped up and told the driver to "hit the lights, we gotta get this kid to the hospital right now !!!!!" it was like an immediate response, i stopped everything and BEGGED God not to take my baby, i prayed so hard... then the guy says to my son, "tell your mom you love her". when i realized what he was saying, i said, NO, he will tell me tomorrow when this is over... when push came to shove i didnt want him telling me that my boy was dying. we got to the hospital and there were so many doctors and nurses on my baby i could hardly see him anymore. i kept asking if he would be ok... noone would answer me, though one woman said "we are doing everything we can" i remember walking in to look at him and then going out to the hallway and bawling my eyes out, then i would go back in and tell him everything would be ok and that i loved him...i touched him, and his skin was so cold, his lips were blue, and his face was so pale... then i would go back out and sit in the hallway to cry- i cannot tell you the feeling i had at that moment.
they called in a surgeon to do an emergency repair.... he was in the operating room for about 45 minutes. when it was over, they took him to the room to get him in his bed and the nurse said, we have a cot over here for you to sleep on mom.... i said "if its all the same with you, i am going to climb in bed with my son" i wrapped my arms around him and held him so tight... i prayed again and thanked God for saving my baby boy, i realized then that he never bled anymore since the last prayer i said in the ambulance... medicine was able to help with my boys problem, but, God fixed it for me when i asked.... noone will ever tell me any different. yeah, i believe that is the most scared i have EVER been. [Edited 1/30/06 19:05pm] No More Haters on the Internet. | |
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littlemissG said: thank you... just writing that out made me get teary eyed again... such an incredibly emotional day 
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nakedpianoplayer said: littlemissG said: thank you... just writing that out made me get teary eyed again... such an incredibly emotional day
Oh God, I am crying over here 
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charlottegelin said: nakedpianoplayer said: thank you... just writing that out made me get teary eyed again... such an incredibly emotional day
Oh God, I am crying over here
me too One of the best days of my life... http://prince.org/msg/100/291111
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nakedpianoplayer said: charlottegelin said: Oh God, I am crying over here
me too 
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charlottegelin said: nakedpianoplayer said: me too
well you lived through this to tell the tale. Do you feel stronger for it? stronger ?? i wouldnt say that so much as i would say that i completely understand just how fragile these babies of ours are.... they're lives are precious and should be celebrated every day. i believe i did this prior to that day, but i damn sure do it now (you can ask either one of my kids) i tell them every single day without fail that they are loved and appreciated in my life, without them, im not sure who i would be One of the best days of my life... http://prince.org/msg/100/291111
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charlottegelin said: nakedpianoplayer said: thank you... just writing that out made me get teary eyed again... such an incredibly emotional day
Oh God, I am crying over here
I nearly an too. I'm not kidding. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING sacres me shitless as much as worrying about the health of my children. It fucking terrifies me. When my little girl was 2 she swallowed some dish washing powder fom the dishwasher. That shit is caustic and she started screaming, that was followed by vomiting etc. We rushed her to hospital and i was in a cold sweat, worried she was going to die. She had a gastroscopy and fortunately the damage was minimal, just minor internal burning. When ahe was in the theatre I was crapping my pants. I have no hesitation in saying I would die from my kids. I would rather anything happen to me instead of them. When I read about the evils of drinking, I gave up reading. | |
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bkw said: charlottegelin said: Oh God, I am crying over here
I nearly an too. I'm not kidding. Nothing, and I mean NOTHING sacres me shitless as much as worrying about the health of my children. It fucking terrifies me. When my little girl was 2 she swallowed some dish washing powder fom the dishwasher. That shit is caustic and she started screaming, that was followed by vomiting etc. We rushed her to hospital and i was in a cold sweat, worried she was going to die. She had a gastroscopy and fortunately the damage was minimal, just minor internal burning. When ahe was in the theatre I was crapping my pants. I have no hesitation in saying I would die from my kids. I would rather anything happen to me instead of them. it is the scariest thing for sure
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