charlottegelin said:

I nearly an too. I'm not kidding.

Nothing, and I mean NOTHING sacres me shitless as much as worrying about the health of my children. It fucking terrifies me.

When my little girl was 2 she swallowed some dish washing powder fom the dishwasher. That shit is caustic and she started screaming, that was followed by vomiting etc. We rushed her to hospital and i was in a cold sweat, worried she was going to die. She had a gastroscopy and fortunately the damage was minimal, just minor internal burning. When ahe was in the theatre I was crapping my pants.

I have no hesitation in saying I would die from my kids. I would rather anything happen to me instead of them.

charlottegelin said:

stronger ?? i wouldnt say that so much as i would say that i completely understand just how fragile these babies of ours are.... they're lives are precious and should be celebrated every day. i believe i did this prior to that day, but i damn sure do it now (you can ask either one of my kids) i tell them every single day without fail that they are loved and appreciated in my life, without them, im not sure who i would be

nakedpianoplayer said:

cause you know what they say say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger, but in this instance, if that had happened to me it would make me MORE fearful and vulnerable and scared

I have to say, too, that my worst fears have to do with my kid...

When she was born, she wasn't initially breathing as she had eaten much of the meconium off of her body, clogging her airway.

They had to suction her airway, and wouldn't answer me when I asked repeatedly if everything was OK.

That 60 seconds or so were easily some of the most trying in my life.

first these are some really touching stories...

9/11... for sure !!! i just KNEW that was going to be the end of life as we knew it.


living in kansas, i have had a few tornado scares... the one a few years ago that threw the big tree on my car in front of my house scared the shit outta me. i had to remain as calm as i could for the kids.. but when it was over i just started bawling, i've never seen ANYTHING like that


but really, i think the most scared i have ever been was shortly after my son had his tonsils out... he started hemorrhaging, my baby lost so much blood so fast. ive never felt so completely helpless in all my life. he was in the ambulance and i was so upset, the guy in there kept asking me to calm down. i told jake how much i loved him, and how much he meant to me, just what a blessing he was to my life - i felt like if this was the only chance i had, i needed him to know these things. the guy said, "really, he'll be ok...". then there was so much more blood... just huge gushes of thick, bluish-red blood.... you could SMELL metal in the air... jake started to pass out... the guy jumped up and told the driver to "hit the lights, we gotta get this kid to the hospital right now !!!!!" it was like an immediate response, i stopped everything and BEGGED God not to take my baby, i prayed so hard... then the guy says to my son, "tell your mom you love her". when i realized what he was saying, i said, NO, he will tell me tomorrow when this is over... when push came to shove i didnt want him telling me that my boy was dying.

we got to the hospital and there were so many doctors and nurses on my baby i could hardly see him anymore. i kept asking if he would be ok... noone would answer me, though one woman said "we are doing everything we can" i remember walking in to look at him and then going out to the hallway and bawling my eyes out, then i would go back in and tell him everything would be ok and that i loved him...i touched him, and his skin was so cold, his lips were blue, and his face was so pale... then i would go back out and sit in the hallway to cry- i cannot tell you the feeling i had at that moment.

they called in a surgeon to do an emergency repair.... he was in the operating room for about 45 minutes.

when it was over, they took him to the room to get him in his bed and the nurse said, we have a cot over here for you to sleep on mom.... i said "if its all the same with you, i am going to climb in bed with my son" i wrapped my arms around him and held him so tight... i prayed again and thanked God for saving my baby boy, i realized then that he never bled anymore since the last prayer i said in the ambulance... medicine was able to help with my boys problem, but, God fixed it for me when i asked.... noone will ever tell me any different.

yeah, i believe that is the most scared i have EVER been.
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nakedpianoplayer said:

Oh God, I am crying over here

charlottegelin said:

thankfully, nothing like that has happened with my daughter, but i know already that is the most scared i would ever feel in my life.

for NPP.

but for the most scared i have been now, would probably be the other night in the ER, and somewhat continuing now. there were times in the ER that i thought i was going to die, i could barely breathe it hurt so bad. it kept going through my mind what the newspapers always say "she seemed a perfectly healthy 26 year old woman . . . then she dropped dead" or something to that effect. and now i'm still a bit scared b/c i had to go back to the Drs today with chest pain. he gave me something stronger to fight the inflammation, it didn't work. he gave me prednisone, and it worked for a bit, but now my chest is hurting AGAIN, almost as bad as it did before. crap, what is going on with me?!?!?!?

fantasyislander said:

What was it, fantasy?

Lammastide said:

what was what?

fantasyislander said:

What was wrong with you?

...I missed that thread.
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Lammastide said:

http://www.prince.org/msg/100/175680

pericarditis. friday. i'm having chest pains again.

OMG...
When I was in south carolina for a family reunion, a fucking waterbug flew the fuck at me. And I didn't know them bitches could fly. It landed right on my shoulder and I fuckin lost it. Missy saw it. That's when she wrote "Lose Control"

September 11, 2001.

a few yrs back ... some friends of my children ..they grew up together and went to school together ...

were killed in a car wreck

at the funeral when the mother was walking out she was wailing

if you ever hear a mother wailing in sorrow for the loss of their child ...it is quite frightening

Lammastide said:

http://www.prince.org/msg/100/175680

pericarditis. friday. i'm having chest pains again.

Mach said:

i had a close friend pass away when we were in high school...

that was hard


but, seeing the effects on his mother were more than my heart could take... that cry, there is something about a mother's cry who has lost a child, it is a frightening thing to see

DynamicSavior said:

no way! that's disgusting!

the first week or so i lived in NYC, i worked at a video store in the village and one night i was behind the counter and one of those big ass waterbugs came running across the floor at me. i had to yell for someone to come help me because i was seriously freaked out...they didn't have that shit in indiana. we just had snakes and banana spiders, sheesh.

Mach said:

i had a close friend pass away when we were in high school...

that was hard


but, seeing the effects on his mother were more than my heart could take... that cry, there is something about a mother's cry who has lost a child, it is a frightening thing to see