It's official- I am home alone for the Holidays!
It is 8:11 am and I am typing through tears!
Gotta run to Sears to pick up the watch he bought me that had to be adjusted.

That's going to be depressing!
I'll be back soon.

shanti0608 said:

either or.

To all of you alone for the holidays!!!

I am eating my kraft dinner and watching tv. This time last year i was enjoying some sacktime with my ex girlfriend. This Xmas is not as good.

Spats said:

Awww- I know what you mean!!
Sorry...

shanti0608 said:

remember, you're not alone, you're just temporarily apart from the ones who love you!

IrresistibleB1tch said:

Thanks Martina- you are very correct!

No but my family ruined mine as usual. I should of just stayed home alone

notoriousj said:

What happened?

shanti0608 said:

I'm sooo happy for you!!!

psychodelicide said:

well lets see...this year with my family was as shitty as always as anytime spent with my family is...it all starts at Thanksgiving when my mom asks me what I want for christmas. This time I tell her I want an Ipod and that is all I really want, due to my HP pocket pc not working anymore. Well move foward to christmas eve....We have dinner...we start at the dinner table, then everyone proceeds to go into the other room. I follow, except there is not place for me to sit, and no empty chairs to pull in unless I decide to sit on the hardwood floor and have the dog all up in my grill while I am trying to eat...so I sit in the other room at the table by myself. Nopbody attempts to talk to me or have a conversation, they all just talk amongst themselves. Nevermind the fact that, they made ham which I don't eat (They know this by the way) and they made no attempt to make any chicken for me which they know I eat and then I get chastised for not eating the dinner that was made. By this time I am feeling like a total dumbass.

Now fast foward to christmas morning, which I now joyfully refer to as I got shafted morning. I was looking foward to that Ipod, well while everyone was opening their pile of presents, I had one sitting in front of me, about the shape of an ipod packaging. I open it up and to my dissmay its a scarf and glove set. Of course instantly I get a dissappointed look on my face and I break into tears. My mother then proceeds to tell me that she hopes I like the scarf and glove set and that she is sorry she did not get me the ipod, but yet my sister is sitting on the other side of the room with about 1,000 dollars of new computer games and other items for her computer..along with the clothes and cds and other things she got.

All I could say and think to myself was "Gee mom hope you like that 300.00 coach bag you were eyeing for months and that I got you. I think I will be keeping it for myself now...it was kinda special and I wanted to give it to you when just me and you were together...but to late its mine now." I played sick so I would not have to go to my grandmas for dinner, I felt so shitty.

I always knew I was the black sheep of the family, but ya know what this is just rediciulous and it solidifies the fact that I should of just stayed at my house down south. I don't maybe I am just being a whiny bitch, but this happens every year, I get pushed to the side while everyone is happy as clams.

shanti0608 said:

In the past, I had woken up alone once (I think) on Xmas morning. But I was an hour's drive from my parents' house, and the idea of simply waking up alone has never bothered me.

This year, though, I expected to spend the entire day alone, with nothing more than phone calls to family. However, a friend of mine was in the same position (i.e., her first Xmas alone), and at the last minute, we decided to spend Xmas together. It actually turned out to be a wonderful Xmas this year.

I suppose the only negative was that contact with family was limited to phone calls... but, ever since I decided to move to Seattle, I knew that I wasn't going to be seeing my family that often.

notoriousj said:

I'm sorry to have read about your experience... you deserve better.

matt said:

Damn it you are the best and always know how to make me feel better... ya bro

matt said:

I am so glad that you & your friend spent the day together. I did wake up alone but I got up early to get ready to drive about an hour south to see my mom. I also stopped in to see a friend of mine & her husband.
The Holidays are hard when you are seperated from family & loved ones.
:hugs:

notoriousj said:

I never get anything from my dad, when I was younger he would send me underwear???
Ever since I turned 15, I have never rec'd anything from him. Sometimes I get a card, sometimes I don't. Every year my mom asks "what did your dad send you"???
I have learned as I have gotten older that Christmas is for children. I do not expect anything, when I do get something I really appreciate it. I usually do not get much, I like to buy for others.
This year I was just glad to be with my mom eventhough her & my stepdad bickered all day!

notoriousj said:

I'm truly sorry to hear that, the way your family is treating you is inexcusable and unthinkable! Is there a good friend that you can spend Christmas with? If so, I would suggest that you spend time with them, and if your family asks you why you are not going to be there for Christmas, tell them why. They need to know how their actions are affecting you. I'm so sorry.