You Don't know where to turn. Who to turn to. Who to trust. What to feel.
You manage to feel that you are the only one with the feelings that you feel. You manage to feel that life and the world is revolving around you. And awaiting your mistakes. You are feeling that if you make a mistake and fall, everyone will be ready to point it out. You feel as if you can't control your life. And you live in a daze. Life...Sucks

BucketOfBouncyBalls said:

You mean like when you say helpless instead of hopeless?

Having trouble peeing again?

I hear that the only way to get over the blues is to post naked photos of yourself on the internet.

(At least, that's what Dook told me )

you know sometimes... i wonder about you orgers


bucket!
talk 2 me girl, what's ailin ya?

I was just trying jokes Sammi.

I understand how you feel Buckets. Sometimes we all feel like that.

bkw said:

ohh hun sowwy i'm not mad
i think we're just too in2 humour these days and often fail 2 realize when something's really up with someone for bkw

and bkw is right too, we all feel like this @ one point and another...
not 2 mention that this time of year is pretty depressing

bkw said:

I did when I read your post.

althom said:

lol you guys are crazy



sammi..just feeling down...especiall when you have parents that never will understand

BucketOfBouncyBalls said:

thank you girl for posting on mine...

I feel the same.....big hugs for you
[Edited 12/11/05 4:33am]

BucketOfBouncyBalls said:

i can totally relate
and it's funny, now that i'm away @ school i miss them
whenever i go home 2 visit (like in about ohhh...2 hours)
i always remember why i wanted 2 get away...but then i feel guilty for it...cuz i really do miss THEM, just not the way they think...

i know where you're coming from
what i do is just let them think what they do, cuz they won't be able 2 stop now...

Things will get better. I'm sure.

Lizzy7701 said:

!!

SammiJ said:

You're really fortunate that you get to be on your own. I still am at home and it drives me insane. I'm suppose to go out tonight and because I mentioned it over dinner my mom got her feathers all ruffled up and doesn't want me to go out. I don't drink I don't smoke I don't do drugs. And I'm going out with these friends of mine and we are going to his house to watch a movie...because we dont' like to go out much. Whatever point is...they'll give me that guilt trip attitude all day to try to talk me out of it. But if I dont go I'll spend all day home and on the computer and im like wtfreak you know...I'm 19 I should be able to go out. This is also partly my fault since I don't drive yet which will change very soon I can assure you that. But It makes me feel that sometimes everyone is waiting for me to screw up and everyone I know is out there having fun and I'm stuck being a nerd at home. Ugh


p.s I can always count on you guys to make me feel better

littlemissG said:

help less
hope less
same damn thing

BucketOfBouncyBalls said:

You have to remember that your parents are doing this out of love. It does sound to me like they are being over-protective, but - then again - I don't have all the details. I would suggest initiating calm dialogue with them about this issue.

BucketOfBouncyBalls said:

You're never alone and no one is focused on your mistakes. You are in total control of your life. In the words of Jonathan Richman:

Make a mistake today for me, go for broke.
Be funny for me when there ain't no joke.
Since I was a boy in school
I could never follow no rule
A mistake today for me, go for broke.

Make a mistake today for me, something rash.
Go and buy yourself some brand new clothes that clash.
But a mistake for me, a break for me.
A mistake today for me, go for broke.

Make a mistake for me
A break for me
A mistake today for me, go for broke
A mistake today for me, go for broke
Go for broke.

BucketOfBouncyBalls said:

my god...
my mother is the same...
guilt trips are her specialty...
and yeah it still sucks being on my own cuz i don't drive either (yet) so i'm still almost always cooped up cuz i hate the snow and busses LOL
so i've been home for a day now... and well...it wasn't even an hour till she started cussin me out cuz of my hair (long story short, it's been in braids for 6 months because i'm dreadlocking it, and she doesn't seem to realize this...in denial she's always on my ass about getting it relaxed again -- fuck that.) and really the best i can do is just take it and be like "you're right mom, i'll have an appointment set up" and do what i planned on doing anyway...just humour your parents...not saying you shouldnt go out
if they can't trust you, and you don't do all that jazz...a talk is needed...
i've done that with my mom when i turned 19...things got a lil easier...but the guilt trips never stopped...
don't let it get u down...the initial motivation behind their actions is all love...it just gets masked by other foolishness

and they won't notice that till u r gone...
they won't neccessarily change, but they'll realize what the deal is...


(tired as all bleeding hell...so sorry if that didn't make any sense...i guess that was my own lil venting period from 2day)

my folks were the same, even worse I suspect. I was not even allowed to go to my graduation party. I moved out of home as soon as I turned 18. I found as soon as I was financially independent I could have a more adult relationship with them as they did not have so much control over me.

SammiJ said:

I guess it must be a mothers instinct but she was so right about me not going. I need apunching bag badly

BucketOfBouncyBalls said:

what happened?

a little mind change will go a long way.

SammiJ said:

i hate guys I hate them

BucketOfBouncyBalls said:

I have to admit that Im starting to lose faith in all of them

Pochacco said:

seriously they piss me off...specially those who say oh i have relationship problems....BS.....stupid pussies

Pochacco said:

I am a man. I am a great guy. I don't respect a good percentage of the human population. However, a group can't be judged by those you interact with. Most often those that are making themselves avilable to you are the worst of the lot anyway.

Ask some questions and get some answers.

Very true Mick , we shouldnt all tar everyone with the same paintbrush , its hard not to though sometimes especially when youve been shit on so many times .

Pochacco said:

I agree...its just some guys piss me off

Pochacco said:

Scat is a sexual way of playing that has to do with poop. In it there are too people, the one that takes the shit and the one that lays down under it.

I have always been extreamly lean with my feelings and others, and with my trust and friendship. People think this is because I am paranoid. I think it is because I am human with the soul of a child, and that child has had enough pain in its lifetimes.