Where to begin.....
I am in the need to express how i feel about this place, you people, what we have here....It is not usual for me to sit here and express how i feel....i am a man after all i usually just make flippant remarks, rag on people and generally arse about here but this place....you people are truly amazing.

This week has been tough....very tough....one of you knows why...a few of you will guess or have your suspicions, some of you won't care.....that is fine but the reaction from the ones who care has been truly overwhelming. At this point it would be inappropriate of me to bare my soul but i am sure that in time i will be able too share myself with you.

However, what i want to express is how i feel about you guys and the bond that many of us have, when i came here it was as a distraction. Many of you will know that when i first got here i was having a stressful time at work, and this place became a distraction from the shit and grief that went with that.....some of you that made me laugh and feel happy then are no longer gracing us with their presence here but many are, one in particular has become a true friend and since those days we have shared many things....my pain, his pain and our happy times. I really never believed in internet friends....real ones...i always thought that people who did that were a bit sad or could not make friends in real life so needed to hide behind a screen before they got the courage to meet....how wrong i was.
Since then my appearances here have been sporadic until i started to properly bond with more than just the one friend...now i have many here who actually feel like i do about friends....like they are prepared to give of themselves with no question and no requirement of anything back.
Over the past few months many of my friends here have expressed their love and worries to me through orgnotes or e-mail or by phone and it has really boosted me....raised my spirits and helped me carry on but the longer this goes on the more amazed i am at you guys....your willingness to give of yourselves to a person never seen, never touched, never held but still a true friend and fellow traveller in life.....and i thank you all for that.....for viewing me in that way and being willing to give of yourselves....it truly is a wonderful thing that we have here, a community of people that are capable of such empathy and human kindness despite all the crap around us.

Thank you for putting up with me and to those of you that will read this and know i am talking of them... I love you all.
Thank you collectively "the org"

Peace and love to you all
Phil
XXX

What a wonderful place to be isn't it?

can I sit on your face now??

always here for you....

beautiful

wrong forum

MartyMcFly said:

that boy got a right pretty mouth.

Anxiety said:

coulda swore last time i was at your house i heard dueling banjos

TheRealFiness said:

Beautiful words.

And exactly the reason why I keep returning here, even though there is so much BS going around here I don't care for.

Meeting people like you is just a gift and I hope everything will even out soon for you.

Yep! There's some wonderful peeps here. And there's some arseholes, too.

Still, it's all about balance.

Cloudbuster said:

and sometimes my arsehole goes peep!

i dunno theres some of us who think Ben could pull the plug on this shit and no one would lose sleep.its the truth honestly im not being mean or anything, not fa' nothin' but sometimes its just the same shit different day.

Anxiety said:

TheRealFiness said:

that's beautiful, man.

Anxiety said:

Anxiety said:

lol sarcasm noted...

Anxiety said:

'ness I have much respect for you but I find it sad that you'd not worry if Ben did pull the plug on this tomorrow... speaking for myself I'd be very upset if I couldn't be in touch and communicate with you all

corny maybe but truth

TheRealFiness said:

Well that is true because all the people that have connected with me I can get in touch with outside of here so yes if it all went tits up no worries. My post was more about making connections that go deeper than here.
Thanks though

I hear you loud and clear!

Natisse said:

why sad? i didnt mean it in a mean or confrontational forum if ben pulled the plug on it, it would be ben's choice none of us would have any say so in the matter, we dont pay to keep the site up and running, id gladly donate if he asked, but there's quite a few people who'd know how to find me if it did. so it wouldnt matter tisse'

mdiver said:

It's definitely true that I have alternate means to contact everyone I'd want to if the org were gone tomorrow. But it's not the same as having everyone in the same place at once.

TheRealFiness said:

I hear what you're saying, yeah

CarrieMpls said:

Oh, you'd miss me you tart.

Awwww that was very sweet & genuine

I feel the same way about this place. We talked about it this weekend at Karen's place. We really are a community.

I am someone who loves to listen.


Take care Mdiver.


M

Number23 said:

Oh, I'd find you.