WOULD YA?

I came really close to doing it over 16 years ago. Thank God I didn't.

I guess I am lucky in as much as I am a really positive person so i always see the things to live for rather than the things that drive me down. Even at my lowest point it only crossed my mind for a fraction of a second..... guess i am lucky, and lets be honest the world would definately be worse off without me

mdiver said:

great attitude

Only once.

But Graffiti Bridge was only 95 minutes long, and after the closing credits, I began the healing process.




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Imago777 said:

OMG

Natisse said:

oh please Nat, you know had to go through the same healing process.

Imago777 said:

uh... no

Natisse said:

Well, maybe you're stronger than I am. But you can't tell me it didn't at least make you uncomfortable and slightly miserable?

Imago777 said:

ok threadjacking over... not something I wish to make light of

I have thought about it much of my life. Sometimes more then others...

shanti0608 said:

No, never really have...and now, my daughter will always keep me sane emotionally. Only once did I find myself believing and feeling as if I held no worth or value in anyone's lives...and during that moment I allowed myself to think that my dying would not effect anyone in any real way. But I never really thought about bringing an end to my life because of it...more like it hit my soul hard to realize it might be true. You get passed it, though...and begin to tell yourself you're proberly wrong...lol

Back during the earlier stages of my (now-ended) marriage, I did watch as my ex-wife quickly reached for a butcher knife in the kitchen and started pressing it into her wrists as she broke down emotionally... ...I had to grab it from her hand and just hold her for ten minutes while she cried and shook violently. I still can't imagine the emotions, thoughts and feelings that must have just overwhelmed her at that moment...*sigh*

yes.

since 1995 i've had increasing, painful health problems which have limited my life a lot (and so sometimes i feel like a huge burden to my family b/c i must depend on them so often for so much), and most of the problems can't really be helped or cured so the drs tell me to just 'cope' and 'learn to live' with the pain and that's not always easy to do.

but suicide leaves behind too much chaos for people who don't deserve that burden. for that reason i don't think i could ever do it. also, i was raised Catholic and so it's engrained in me that suicides go to hell and, whether or not that is so (not meaning to bring up a religious debate here) i am scared of what would happen to me "after", if i commited suicide.

not wanting death per se, but also not wanting to suffer/pain anymore in life, either, is hard to balance sometimes

Natisse said:

Back at ya!!

a whole lot....I always thought about what's the simplest way to end quickly like pills or a shot to the head. I never attempted, because I'm a bit afraid to die and i'm afraid if I take a bottle of pills I might die slowly and feel stomach pains or someone might find me and i'll get my stomach pumped. Hanging myself is a long process so that was out. I thought of holding my breath until I passed out and during the winter once i opened my windows all the way tried to let all the cold in so i'll die in my sleep, but I got cold so I closed them. Well, I'm to chicken to do it and I don't really want to end my life. Some times I feel my life is pointless and I am not going to get anywhere, because of my nervousness or anxiety.

I live for other people, I just couldn't let them down.

No, that's why conceit is a good thing sometimes.

unlucky7 said:

I know how you feel about the nervousness & anxiety.

I get really irritated when I hear of young people committing suicide. But when it's the elderly, my attitude shifts completely, and I think they deserve the right.

Natisse said:

Imago777 said:

ya dag!!!





And no I have never seriously thought about killing myself...seems kinda selfish to me

No. I have never thought of suicide. I have seriously contemplated homicide a few times though.

ZELAIRA:

What about your answer?
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I used to when I was a teenager, but I think I was just bored as fuck & needed something to think about Never seriously considered it, sure in hell don't see myself ever trying

There's positive in EVERYTHING in life, you just gotta talk yourself into looking for it. What doesn't kill you truly does make you stronger, gotta revel in the strength (whether you feel strong or not) & you'll get through...

Zelaira said:

i would not do it but yes i thought abt it..

yes many times!!

missmad said:

Terilicious said:

it's cause of that iguana, isn't it