Okay D-Day is still Friday Oct. 21st. The surgery has been moved to the closest hospital near my home less than 1 mile away. This one has a cancer ward and hospice has well BUT I have not yet received a cancer diagnosis, but I think the Dr. is just preparing just in case. He is also consulting with a neurologist has well. The tumor in my wrist is still growing and it is the size of a plum now, a lil pain since it is attached to the bones, muscles, nerves and blood vessels.

I went to the hospital last nite for paperwork and surgery pre-testing and was there for 5 hours since my blood pressure was in stroke level and wouldn't come down!!!!!

I told the nurse I was angry and upset with the surgery move and all, but she still kept trying to admit me to the hospital and i said NO!!!!! We both spoke with my family Dr. on the phone who is out of town btw, and he said for me to double up the blood pressure meds until the surgery. The surgeon has also put in the request for blood for a POSSIBLE transfusion, I couldn't give my own blood has all my veins are now collapsed and my blood type is rare, family members dont have it, strangers have to give it to me.

I am angry, tired and scared and ready for this shit to be over with!!!!! I will have a friend post after the surgery and diagnoses has been give. Special thanks to all of those who are praying for me and sending good positive thoughts my way, I real appreciate it more than you will ever know!!!!!

good luck! god bless! get well soon!

there's a lot involved mentally. Be strong and you should sail through.

You're in my thoughts.

you'll be fine rach', u've been through so much and this to will pass

lots of love to you ladybird

now we have to work on that bloodpressure!
think happiest memories,
lean on positive people
enjoy the sunshine on your face

and we will be glad to hear how it went when it's over

TheRealFiness said:

We love you girl

Wish you all the best

Good luck and a speedy recovery

good luck!!

Ladybird, you'll be ok. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts, and people'll be keeping the chatroom warm for you.

Take a good, deep breath.

Do that everytime you start to feel your anxiety escalate.

You've said your prayers. You have done your part to take care of you. You are a very strong woman. It's gonna be okay.

This has really touched me deeply and you've been in my thoughts a lot, Rachel. I can't believe how strong you are... With your fighting spirit you can beat anything! Don't ever lose faith in that. We won't.

Healing starts from within. Calm yourself (I know easier said than done).

focus on your healing.....God be with you.

I will be praying for you.

sending positive thoughts your way.

You are in my thoughts and prayers!

Sending healing prayers to you~

My prayers are with you.
Take it a day at a time.

Steadwood said:

I second that...

Rachel.....you are always foremost in my ers.....

You are strong, positive and a very careing soul.....what is given so shall be recieved.....


much and special blessings

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thank you pk... hope all went well