Soon Zel will be ALONE. HER PARENTS want to FORCE her to DO THINGS SHE DOESn'T WANT To DO! THEY WON"T HELP ANYMORE. THEY ARE PHONEY, MEAN ETC ESPECIALLY THE GREEDY MOM. SHE's the WORST. THEY want to FORCE ME.... THEY haVE always forced me been against my choices boyfriends , FRIENDS. I SIMPLY ain"t no mom... barely A grown_up. A TEENAGER IN A WOMAN'S BODY. I CAN barely TAKE care OF myself ....yA THINK I CAN TAKE CARE OF 2? WELL , MAYBE WHEN I AM ESTABLISHED BUT RIGHT NOW I'M A CHILD STILL. CAN'T HELP WHAT MENTAL CApabilities are. delicate a creature my hardball mom wants to turn me OUT giving me choices I don't like. What should I do for SURVIVAL? IT is FORCED ON ME NOW....SHE says DO IT OR GET OUT! WHY? SHE is a SINNER BIG TIME....PHONEY WANTS RESPECT and NEVER GIVES ANYONE ANY..CURSES all day long ...FIGHTS and she is EVIL AGAINST EVEN FAMILY... TRUST ME SHE IS a RUDE LOUD PERSON...MEAN to the BONE with NO SOUL. SHE THREATENS ME AND CALLS me NAMES. SHE's A NUT.. FIGHTS NONSTOP>

Plus she told me she wants me to DIE and MY BREASTS to FALL OFF> I am MOVING to ANYWHERE SOON...

hi
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hope you're ok

Hang In Zelaria ! MsLegs wondered where you've been hiding yourself.
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John P's 3-step program for Zelaira:

1. If you're doing any drugs, alcohol or even cigarettes, quit them. Your parents will appreciate you if you get back to the way you were when you were a child. Not to BE a child, but to be HEALTHY. It was no doubt easier for both parties then and they still think of you as their child and always will whether you like it or not. Clean. Without cynicism or addiction. Have friends that do these things? Get new friends. At least until you're strong enough to resist peer pressure. You will love yourself much more as a result. No one can lose. This is the hardest part. Manage your time so that you can do this successfully. Rehabilitation is almost like taking a holiday in some ways. It's like time off from the destructive way you've been living, but in this case it HAS to be a permanent commitment in order for it to work. The irony is that getting back to being a child (in this way at least) actually makes it easier to be an adult.

2. Compassion. For yourself and others. Take an interest in other people. Not doing this is one of the biggest contributors to depression and related illnesses. Not to mention arguments.

3. Action. Now that you're clean, you will find it easier to make the changes you want to make in your life.

I don't exactly know your circumstances, but this worked for me in regards to most things, when I felt like I have been in danger of "falling off the wagon".

Failing these steps, get a good therapist and consider medication, at least in the short-term.

Best of luck to you.




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Zelaira!! Your back?

Sometimes we need to finally GROW UP and take responsibility for our lives and others who share it with us.. esepcially children.. Some people can't stand by any longer and watch their adult children walk around like teenie boppers with their heads in the clouds... Sometimes a mom has to do what a mom SHOULD do.. that dont make her mean.. it makes her a mom.. something you should know... right???

Zelaira said:

Well that is uncalled for.....

Zelaira said:

From what I can understand you have a baby and your parents don't want to help you take care of it any longer. Correct? And when she says "do it or get out" she is referring to you getting a job? Or are you pregnant and the "do it" refers to getting an abortion?

My mother didn't want me from birth so you know what I did? I got the fuck over it. I will assume you are an adult and there are times we will have to make adult decisions. If you are being serious, find a social agency that will help you find shelter for right now.

Zelaira, if you are pregnant and your mother is attempting to talk you into a termination, you need to get away from her so that you can make your own decision.

I mean - if that's what the situation actually is.

Could you go visit family or friends?

luv4u said:

there's something wrong with her back, too?!


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zel, i have no idea what's going on with you but i wish you and yours the best

Zel,
I am sorry that your parents are putting pressure on you.
Does this have to do with your breast cancer scare and the leaking implants?

Maybe I am getting you mixed up with someone else... but if this is related, you have the right to make your own decisions regarding your health. I would talk to my doctor the pressure being placed on you by your mom, maybe he can refer you to a counselor to help you sort this out and make the best decision FOR YOU.

Take your life in your own hands and do everything you can to be independent of your parents. Don't rely on them for support. You can find support in other ways. Be your own person. Don't blame others for your problems. They can't force you to do things if you're independent and no longer a child.

whap!