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PrintableMuse2NOPharaoh said: AlfofMelmak said: My character has a tendency to only include people who somehow already know me. People who pass my character 'filter' if you will, tend to know me pretty good.
I do not seek being known. I'll tell you if you ask, until i feel your question is out of my bounds, then i'll tell you that as well. Seems like sinister and me got a lot in common there. What gives one carte blanche to enter the character filter zone? Oh, this ranges from chance meetings to active stalking  Until it suddenly ´clicks´.
and some more bollocks which i deleted edit [Edited 6/30/05 7:55am] You don't scare me; i got kids | |
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I think a certain other orger here summed me up perfectly
I know many and many know me but I'm only "known" in the sense karen means by a few. | |
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I suppose everyone I know knows a different Billy. | |
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A few people who know me well think they know me.
But I find it dificult to comprehend that they know me. Becasue of all the people who are close to me I think I know me the least. It is therefore dificult to be happy being known, when you don't know what it is that everybody should know. For those of you who missed my shiny helmet.... | |
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I'm a little eager to reach out I think...sometimes I catch myself needing to step back and not tell anyone and everyone everything
there are things that I keep to myself when the time comes of course but by and large I tend to give away way too much of myself  | |
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the info is right out there for any to know ... they just have to choose to turn the pages
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IstenSzek said: not that much, actually. it is good to be known by a few
and to know a few in return. but as soon as you start to stick out amongst a crowd it opens you up to many interactions (not always bad tho) n I find, personally, that I don't have enough time anymore to get to do the things I want to do. being known is very time consuming. being honest and revealing however, is another thing tho. I'm honest to a very high degree with almost everyone I talk to and get to know. Perhaps because I've been lied to too many times before and can't sympathise or relate to liars anymore. Perhaps because I've always felt that it is better to be turned down for something you believe in than to be accepted for something you fabricated. And since we're being honest and revealing, I must admit that I think, perhaps, I missunderstood the question and just wrote a lot of bollocks lol. So feel free to correct me and nudge me into the right direction if I got it off the mark It's the same with me! I don't lie and hate to be lied at! Be honost, always..I'd rather be hurt by the truth than hurt by lies! I'm a very open and honost person, to myself and to others.  The Borg... Partypoopers of the galaxy.. ( Medical Hologram )
------------------------------------------------- ..Where is my lovelife.. where can it be?? There must be something wrong with the machinery.. | |
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I like to be behind the screen, but be agknowledged for my work.
That is why I record artists and help them, and seeing my credit and getting their thanks is what I enjoy. That way I keep my privacy, but still known. | |
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Fuck, if I am not comfortable at 52, I might as well give up..
Yep, no screen, just me is what you get. I have learnt to allow people into my lives. I scare people, they say my depth is to intense... I'm like 
I love to cry, I love to laugh, and I love this life I have here on this earth... It is a choice I have made. ^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^*^
Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect, it means you've decided to look beyond the imperfections... unknown | |
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My prince.org side is my nice side.  | |
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I am a fortress.
Almost no one gets in. Those I let in, never get out. I prefer to ask questions, not answer them. I don't give of myself freely at all. I wish I knew how. I use humor to project a certain image that I want others to believe in. Once I open myself up to someone, I never let them go. | |
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sag10 said: Fuck, if I am not comfortable at 52, I might as well give up..
Yep, no screen, just me is what you get. I have learnt to allow people into my lives. I scare people, they say my depth is to intense... I'm like
I love to cry, I love to laugh, and I love this life I have here on this earth... It is a choice I have made. I so like you   You don't scare me; i got kids | |
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 1. What's black and blue and brown and laying in a ditch?
A brunette who's told too many blonde jokes. MUSE ROCKS!!! | |
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Friendships are nurtured and in time a trust grows and you feel comfortable with that person, and they get to know you and vice versa.
Pretension or insincerity is never a good thing. | |
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great thread, Karen! 
in my 20s, i used to have absolutely no filter... whatever i thought came out of my mouth, including very personal things. i had a fantastic boss at the time who told me that i needed to practice "quiet dignity". almost 20 years later, those words still strike a chord with me, and i try to live that way (some days are more successful than others!  )
i'm somewhat well-known in the area for my work with the community center and in animal rights, and i'm fine with that, as long as it is all about the issues. when it comes to personal information about me, i'm much more reserved. there are sides to my life even my best friends and my family know nothing about. and i like it that way. | |
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Lleena said: Friendships are nurtured and in time a trust grows and you feel comfortable with that person, and they get to know you and vice versa.
Pretension or insincerity is never a good thing. You tell 'em, Gertrude!! | |
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Muse2NOPharaoh said: How willing are you to be known? Do you run in a circle of pretension or is there within you a willingness to be known? What I speak of is not a judgment... It is a freedom many never experience.
To be known is very freeing. Couldn't disagree more. Are you addicted to people knowing you? How would you feel if you were the only person on earth? | |
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not very. | |
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sag10 said: Fuck, if I am not comfortable at 52, I might as well give up..
Yep, no screen, just me is what you get. I have learnt to allow people into my lives. I scare people, they say my depth is to intense... I'm like
I love to cry, I love to laugh, and I love this life I have here on this earth... It is a choice I have made. http://elmadartista.tumblr.com/ http://twitter.com/madartista | |
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Muse2NOPharaoh said: Byron said: There's no pretense within my world, never has been...but I do tend to internalize many moments, problems and thoughts (the less-than-positive ones anyway). I've never been one to let anyone know if I'm sad or troubled or depressed...I tend to be the listener/counselor, and nobody really asks their counselor if they're doing ok. I would deal with things in solitude until I felt it was under control or solved, then I might let in one or two very close intimates into my thoughts and feelings. But even then, I would downplay what I went thru for the most part. I don't know if it was a fear of vunerability or decades of feeling as if I couldn't be myself with anyone to any significant level, like I had to hide that "real" part of myself away. Maybe it was both.
I'm a lot more open now than I think I ever have been in my entire life, though...this post is probably evidence of that. *smile* We spent an evening not so long ago that was very real.... (Poor Sweeny bared with) So, do you find it better to be revealed?   In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Byron said: There's no pretense within my world, never has been...but I do tend to internalize many moments, problems and thoughts (the less-than-positive ones anyway). I've never been one to let anyone know if I'm sad or troubled or depressed...I tend to be the listener/counselor, and nobody really asks their counselor if they're doing ok. I would deal with things in solitude until I felt it was under control or solved, then I might let in one or two very close intimates into my thoughts and feelings. But even then, I would downplay what I went thru for the most part. I don't know if it was a fear of vunerability or decades of feeling as if I couldn't be myself with anyone to any significant level, like I had to hide that "real" part of myself away. Maybe it was both.
I'm a lot more open now than I think I ever have been in my entire life, though...this post is probably evidence of that. *smile*   In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Known in the biblical sense?
That depends on who wants to know me. | |
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I'm me all the time so I guess I'm "revealed", but the trouble is I'm a different "me" everyday  , so it's a real bitch to keep up with me.In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Muse2NOPharaoh said: I'm not speaking in some bumble jumble bullshit form..... I am speaking from a level of sincerity. Here of all places I would think it would be easy to be revealed and therefore known but as I know, even here.... many feel unsafe revealed. What difference is it? I mean no one can kill you really... yes they can use sharp words to target you but in fact they attack themselves.... They reveal the lack within. It is there own position on display. So what really holds you back from being known?
Nice thread Miss Muse. I've got to think about this real hard. As equality grows, violence declines. | |
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Sweeny79 said: I'm me all the time so I guess I'm "revealed", but the trouble is I'm a different "me" everyday
, so it's a real bitch to keep up with me.I'll say. 
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That picture scares me.  In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Sweeny79 said: Byron said: There's no pretense within my world, never has been...but I do tend to internalize many moments, problems and thoughts (the less-than-positive ones anyway). I've never been one to let anyone know if I'm sad or troubled or depressed...I tend to be the listener/counselor, and nobody really asks their counselor if they're doing ok. I would deal with things in solitude until I felt it was under control or solved, then I might let in one or two very close intimates into my thoughts and feelings. But even then, I would downplay what I went thru for the most part. I don't know if it was a fear of vunerability or decades of feeling as if I couldn't be myself with anyone to any significant level, like I had to hide that "real" part of myself away. Maybe it was both.
I'm a lot more open now than I think I ever have been in my entire life, though...this post is probably evidence of that. *smile* *Smile*...  | |
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Byron said: Sweeny79 said: *Smile*... here's an even BIGGER.. In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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sag10 said: Fuck, if I am not comfortable at 52, I might as well give up..
Yep, no screen, just me is what you get. I have learnt to allow people into my lives. I scare people, they say my depth is to intense... I'm like
I love to cry, I love to laugh, and I love this life I have here on this earth... It is a choice I have made. Well, all I have to say about these people is - Chicken! I love intense emotions. | |
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AlfofMelmak said: sag10 said: Fuck, if I am not comfortable at 52, I might as well give up..
Yep, no screen, just me is what you get. I have learnt to allow people into my lives. I scare people, they say my depth is to intense... I'm like
I love to cry, I love to laugh, and I love this life I have here on this earth... It is a choice I have made. I so like you Me too! | |
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