Many decisions we make personally cripple us...just depends on how many of these decisions you make over and over again.

Are you doing what you want to be doing in life?

Are you on the path you should be on?

Or have you snapped back and forth like a weak rubberband that's about to pop loose?

And you're finding yourself tired as hell in dealing with stupid people and stupid shit.

Have you given up on any hopes of being who you are professionally and personally?

Post your struggles and your plans to renew your faith in yourself.
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Personally, probably. Professionally I'm content.

Are you doing what you want to be doing in life? ...at the moment, yes I'm realising my dream of living/travelling in the UK and that is more than enough for me right now

Are you on the path you should be on? ...yes

Or have you snapped back and forth like a weak rubberband that's about to pop loose? ...in lower moments, yes

And you're finding yourself tired as hell in dealing with stupid people and stupid shit ...lol it's actually something I've been thinking a lot about recently

Have you given up on any hopes of being who you are professionally and personally? ...professionally I think so yes because I don't think at my age I can realistically do what I always wanted to do

personally not at all I'm happy with who I am and where I am in my life

i work for halliburton, which is practically my enemy, i am so opposed to the war-profiteering they have had their single greatest year because of.

but, it's a job

cborgman said:

yep, perfect outlook, i mean that sincerely.

Well, I gave up a glittering career in temping to sit on a balcony in Thailand drinking tea.

Yes, I went with my heart and moved to Thailand to be with a woman instead of finishing my degree(s), but to be honest, I was bored with education before I even got to university. As far as a career, I'm not following my passions. I have concerns about the future, but I'm not sure I'd be any more certain about it were I in England now with a degree, a masters and whatever else. I don't know what job I would be doing. Personally I'm fine with my choices and who I am. Professionally, I'm pond scum.

Edit: I'm only 23 and I don't feel pressure, yet. I can still do anything I put my mind to, including education, so I'm optimistic about things.

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jerseykrs said:

i feel like halliburton's dirty whore sitting at my desk.

cborgman said:

Nice perk!

TeaAndTe said:

On the phone with...

FreeSpirit.

She told me to say that this Thread is sooooo on Fucking Point!

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cborgman said:

Nice!

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cborgman said:

Do you ever wonder "What if...?"

Do you feel as though you're the only one who gets it at that place?

Are you doing what you want to be doing in life? Not really, no.

Are you on the path you should be on? That's the same question, innit?

Or have you snapped back and forth like a weak rubberband that's about to pop loose? More like a paper bag in the wind.
And you're finding yourself tired as hell in dealing with stupid people and stupid shit. yeah, but let's be fair; there are plenty people out there saying the same about me, I bet

Have you given up on any hopes of being who you are professionally and personally? Depends on when you ask me. Right now I am in a dip, but I'll get back up there soon enough.

Post your struggles and your plans to renew your faith in yourself.


Plans?! I never made a plan in my whole damn life! Maybe that's where I am going wrong, huh...?

Natisse said:

I often think about when does your personal and professional life interwine into one. Maybe it's when we're doing what we really want...and in essence we're giving to this cruel-cruel world.

There's an inner power you can achieve that can take you to a higher mental state. Maybe this is the place we need to be internally and maybe the rest...professionally will take care of itself.


Did I just say that?
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Natisse said:

You know, that really surprises me. You always come across as being so content and happy with life.

Slash said:

oh no sorry I worded it wrong what I meant by all that is that I AM happy with where I am in my life

sorry...and thank you

AlienX2050 said:

lol yep not sure who you are but it doesn't matter I agree totally
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AlienX2050 said:

my story is too personal, but have you heard the term 'its time to clean house'?
then thats where i'm starting at.

AlienX2050 said:

yes, all the time.

and no, which is one of the saving graces of the job. aside from one or two, the magority of people in my office feel slightly less angry versions of what i feel

AlienX2050 said:

WHAT AAH YOU TAHLKING AHBOUT???

AlienX2050 said:

....uh...I guess so....

IrresistibleB1tch said:

reminds me of something I read just yesterday... "if you wanna free the slaves, sometimes you have to deal with the slave owners.."

AlienX2050 said:

That's Julie, alright!

madartista said:

interesting...

the guy was actually very nice - go figure!

i think everybody was worried that i would call in "my people" during the big night...

IrresistibleB1tch said:

That reminds of something else from yesterday... I was talking to my brother and his girlfriend about a mutual acquaintance -- a friendly neighbor, actually. I told them he is an NRA Republican with a "Charletion Heston is my President" bumper sticker. They were shocked... "He's so nice. That doesn't seem like him." It's a good reminder that we can disagree with people's choices, and still like them. We're all pretty quick to demonize those who are different.

brownsugar said:

All of this is probably too personal for most people to post...

"Cleaning House" is a good term.

For me, I'm working on fully accepting me for me. Anything short of that won't do.

And anyone in my life asking me to be anything other than myself, can just kiss my ass.

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madartista said:

not sure which is worse - a big game hunter or a Charlton Heston fan... ... tough one!

AlienX2050 said:

That's where I am, too. And it's taken me 34 years to get to this point.

Professionally -- I've sold out for most of my employment career. I've worked in movie theaters, law firms, mortgage companies, education centers, and defined my life by where I worked and my paycheck. And I was never happy.

I took a giant leap and moved to L.A. to work in entertainment, but then ended up doing the same old shit. A chance encounter took me to the door step of my Idol, and I thought my life had finally changed. But it didn't. Or it did, but not like I wanted it too. So that portion of touching the dream was brief. But for one brief, shining moment, I really felt like I was on top of the world. And the fall sucked. It took a couple of years or rubber banding before I was really ready to stand up again.

And it's been only six months now, but I'm doing it. I have less money and more freedom than ever. What's in my bank account is all I got, until the next gig. It's frightening, but freeing. The personal path, has been there all along -- I've always been traveling and learning and moving on. And now the professional is coming into place.

Thanks for asking.

Deep questions... and you are!? I don't believe we have met, orgname.

AlienX2050 said:

Let us (you and I) unite!