yall im freakin out juss thinking bout going back , omg and thus that may change my mind

but I want it, but im u all don't know how freaked i am.
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If the idea of going back to pursue the pathology thing makes you naseous, nah, you shouldn't do it.

But if that sounded interesting, AND the music thing sounded interesting, then I'd say finish the MD. I say that because, in my experience (I'm 25) and in watching my friends, the older you get, the harder it is to work school into your life. Relationships, jobs, mortgages . . things that give many people happiness and stability make full-time schooling a major pain in the ass. I pursued a degree in philosophy, and that's great, I got a lot out of that, but now I want to go back to school (coincidentally, medical school) and life just isn't about to cooperate with that idea. This is an oversimplification of the situation, but if I knew then what I know now, I would have pursued medicine and studied philosophy on my own down the road.

Live and learn. Or, ask the org and learn.

guys advice again, there r 2 options, one i can go back 2 the uni studyin med that i was at b4 which was 2 hrs on da train back and forth 5 days a week

or

i can try my luck at a closer uni, but my grades aren't that good since these places r packed cause its closer, i can study 2 subjects and c how i go, if i do well then im in . what do u think.

PREDOMINANT said:

my husband works to make the money so we can have a recording studio at home. and he doesn't hate his job either, it challenges him and still leaves loads of time for the music.

guesss what. my bro came home from school and he was talking bout how his teacher thinks he'll do well in chem next yr and my father goes


if u don't have a medical degree ure nothing.

Stay in school.

missmad said:

sorry!

don't b babe, but thanx, lol.

my bro is an ass, isn't it typical 4 them 2 play mind games wit ur head. When my bro yells at me I don't say a thing, i just do waht he says but now he ordered me 2 open da door and i stood up 2 him and he used that against me, he told me 2 open da door and go get his helmet, i got his helmet and kinda threw it at him, then he said if i threw it at him he would've punched me, his tone of voice he always uses but this time i went apeshit and started hitting him, then I started yelling and he calmly said ( like i always do) ure the only one that's yelling right now, go get a job, go study and alll dat, he goes dass why we have all the problems cause u don't have a job. I am SOOOOO FU***** in' sick of dis crap. Suicide sounds sooooo good doesn't it again. but i no its not the solution.

He just came back and nows as i am writing this he is givin me sooooo much shittttt..... i am not helping myself blah blah blah, i am not helping myself until i bring money in2 the house,blah blah blah, i am so sick of this shit, some one needs 2 no, ur being secretive, that no one is bothering me, yea right, if you can't tell me anything, i am going 2 call u a bitch a ho blah blah blah, i am sooooo sick of this, sick of this, sooooo sick of this.....


[Edited 6/3/05 23:56pm]

help

so one plz answer me

helllllooooo?
[Edited 6/4/05 0:27am]

MODS PLZ DELETE THIS THREAD, love mad

I was listening to this old Philly-soul song on the way home from work.
Maybe there's a message here for you...

Everyman - Double Exposure

It's on you, pick and choose where you want to go in life
No one said that the road would be paved all smooth and nice
If you wanna be a lawyer or just lay around all day
Don't be jealous of the fellas, who want to go all the way
After all you're only sellin' nobody but yourself
In the end you have to answer to yourself and no one else

(Chorus)
Everyman has to carry, his own weight
(Oh yeah, oh yeah)
Everyman has to carry, his own weight
(Oh yeah, oh yeah)

Everyman has a cross only he has to bear
If he lost that's the cost for not planning way ahead
We were all born with the tools so let's put them all to use
One day we may all have problems but complaining just won't solve them
One day we could be on top and the next day you could drop
So no matter what you do all the weight is left on you.

Everyman has to carry, his own weight
(Oh yeah, oh yeah)
Everyman has to carry, his own weight
(Oh yeah, oh yeah)

...then again, maybe not.
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Laying flat on the page, the lyric can read like lame platitudes.
However heard in context with the upbeat track, it's obviously a joyous affirmation to personal responsibility.
=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

At the time of its release, there was a mini-controversy about the midsection where the lead singer admonishes someone for not carrying their own weight. Some thought it was a cold, selfish tirade to someone who was down on their luck. On closer listen, the overall lyrical arc more so focuses on taking responsibility for the choices one makes: "It's on you."
www.allmusic.com

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tA

Tribal Disorder

http://www.soundclick.com...rmusic.htm
[Edited 6/6/05 11:38am]

I posted a new thing its above my help post.

Hi missmad ! Everyone has given all to help with your dilema. It's a testament to the Org.
Making descisions about what path to take in life can be awesomely perplexing. This may sound stupid, but I'd love to see you do it all! Be a Pathologist, Poet, and Musician. You'll never be bored, plus with time your true passion will shine.

Reading tA's post reminded me of a story he related whereby a friend after 20 years between gigs had faith in him to raise to the occassion and support him at a concert which can only be described as having twenty thousand people in the Audience ,plus on foreign soil. ( Hey neal ! )

I hope you can see missmad that as your family seems to be abusing your ideals, ideas, being dynamic at the moment will distract their negativity, and send you on your own path. Time will answer what path is your true passion, and consider all the advice of your friends here, the answer is "blowing in the wind".It's a hard call, and at times like this sitting back and staring at options is worse than plowing head long into the abyss. Breathe deep, find peace, go forward, sculpt actions into stanza's of worlds.

Take a year out and travel the world.

I want it all 2, lol. thanx love mad

FLUX said:

Fauxie said:

my father would never go 4 that, but thanx anyways fauxie,love mad

FLUX said:

Hey there FLUX.

Great take my friend.


tA

Tribal Disorder

http://www.soundclick.com...rmusic.htm

i sooooo can't take this shit, i wanna kill myself.
[Edited 6/6/05 21:44pm]

missmad said:

Where the hell is that yellow emoticon with the crazy, revolving eyes?

I found a use for it.

doctormcmeekle said:

Those years go by fast though.

missmad said:

chin up now you'll be ok, just give yourself time

Hang in there...miss...

guess what my bro just gave me major attitude

he was talking on da phone and he said something that was incorrect so i corrected him and he goes and gives me da finger 2wice and more shit. he gets off the phone and goes.....

get a degree then we can talk.

then he apologizes .....my a$$.
Its a shame that so much goes into a piece of paper. theres a poem bout dis on the site titled sign o the times. lata

missmad said:

I don't know you but here's my 2 cents...

Unless and/or until you make lots of money in the music business or whatever it is that you really want to do...people will down your ass.

The truth of the matter is...do what they want, you'll get support...do what you want...you gets nothing.

How strong are you mentally? Are you able to change your environment....get around people who are in the music business day to day.

Can you live this life or can you live for someone else?

Good luck.
..

thanx. i don't know if u have seen the first post 2 dis thread but check it out, and also the rest of the posts love mad

NUMB

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you.
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.

Can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you.

[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take.

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.

And I know
I may end up failing too

But I know
you were just like me
with someone disappointed in you.

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you.

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
[tired of being what you want me to be]
(repeat)

Linkin Park