I am losing it. My doctor said i need to visit hospital. My job wants me to take a leave of absence but i don't feel like going thru that bullshi# paperwork but i do need the time cause i can't function. I can't lose my job cause i will never find another job like this tha pays me 3500 a month with weekends off. I mines well disappear off the earth if hat happens. Then my lover is accusing me of trying to sabotage him when that is not the case. I love her so so much. her friends is twisting my words around on purpose so she can hate me due to their jealousy of the things i did for her the past 2 and half years. What can i do? i don't know.
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Listen to your doctor. They know what's best.

it sounds like you need some time off ... time away

to find yourself and your strength
to be able to work out your lifes problems and to enjoy yourself again


well wishes and good luck

2the9s said:

I took a physical at the time cause i didn't care if anything was wrong with me, but as of now the doctor said i fine everything so far except mental health due to my separation which i hope that is all. I need my baby back. She was and still is my world.

didn't your partner leave you?

or is that someone else



the org is so dramatic and stressfull

saintsation said:

- seriously fella, i should listen to the doctor. they've got your best interests at heart.

saintsation said:

Take the advice from you're doctor

Be well

saintsation said:

take the time

cause all the wanting in the world won't bring them back, i know. Just have to get on with things

You must be thinking about getting help...you have posted 2ce about it. You seem to want to get it...but fear that it'll put your life on hold too much.

You have 3 priorities..You, Work And your GF.

You are looking at them Like this GF, Work, You...and it should be the other way around. I think the GF will come around after you get some help...it could be the reason you are having issues with her.

Make certain your work is ok with a leave (well they have to be...I think it's a law or something to grant you medical leave). Dude, take of yourself FIRST...that's most imparitive...otherwise you may sink even more into the mental madness.

I know the GF thing is really BIG right now and you may be thinking that if you fix THAT...everything will fall in place. NOT TRUE! She is certainly taking care of herself and you should do the same. Trying to win her back and being manical about it will push her further..and you don't want that.

superspaceboy said:

U are right 100 percent.

lollyp0p said:

Left me due some something that was wicked in my past. Thats why it hurts so much, but i get on.

take care of yourself

I enjoy being insane. Everything is easy when you just don't give a fuck.

saintsation said:

go with SSB
he talks sence

time off is good

Sweeny79 said:

Especially when you need it. The hassle of the paperwork will seem like nothing once you've taken a little time to get yourself in a better frame of mind. If your doctor recommends you take a leave of absence, I'm sure your job would be protected, at least to a certain point. That's the way it is in California. You should check out the options becase you only have one you. Make the best of your life that you can, ignoring your health is not the way. Good luck