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sometimes the pain in the world overwhelms me... i am far too sensitive of a person, i know this. i am entirely too empathetic, and tend to absorb other peoples pain.
today at work i was sitting in the internet cafe, and a class of newbies let out. they were walking very quickly, trying to get to lunch, i assume. and then one of the came out the door, and she was moving very slowly, as she has that leg condition, where she takes a step, and like the knee goes back a little, and the one leg is shorter than the other, i have no idea what it is called. and she is moving as fast as she can, but it's like only half the pace of the others, who are swarming past her. it just made me want to cry. and of course, being the moron i am, i dwelled on it and start worrying about this girl will never meet someone who loves her, will never get married, ect. i just wanted to hold her and cry for her. god, i hate the world sometimes. anyone else have these little moments, or is it just me? [Edited 2/8/05 15:47pm] Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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Satan said: i am far too sensitive of a person, i know this. i am entirely too empathetic, and tend to absorb other peoples pain.
today at work i was sitting in the internet cafe, and a class of newbies let out. they were walking very quickly, trying to get to lunch, i assume. and then one of the came out the door, and she was moving very slowly, as she has that leg condition, where she takes a step, and like the knee goes back a little, and the one leg is shorter than the other, i have no idea what it is called. and she is moving as fast as she can, but it's like only half the pace of the others, who are swarming past her. it just made me want to cry. and of course, being the moron i am, i dwelled on it and start worrying about this girl will never meet someone who loves her, will never get married, ect. i just wanted to hold her and cry for her. god, i hate the world sometimes. anyone else have these little moments, or is it just me? that's so sweet   ...and to answer your question yes I do  | |
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Natisse said: Satan said: i am far too sensitive of a person, i know this. i am entirely too empathetic, and tend to absorb other peoples pain.
today at work i was sitting in the internet cafe, and a class of newbies let out. they were walking very quickly, trying to get to lunch, i assume. and then one of the came out the door, and she was moving very slowly, as she has that leg condition, where she takes a step, and like the knee goes back a little, and the one leg is shorter than the other, i have no idea what it is called. and she is moving as fast as she can, but it's like only half the pace of the others, who are swarming past her. it just made me want to cry. and of course, being the moron i am, i dwelled on it and start worrying about this girl will never meet someone who loves her, will never get married, ect. i just wanted to hold her and cry for her. god, i hate the world sometimes. anyone else have these little moments, or is it just me? that's so sweet ...and to answer your question yes I do it just sucks the breath right out of me. i couldn't even finish my skittles. it makes me feel so lame to confess it, but it just gets me sometimes. and it's these tiny little details. i can watch footage of the tsunami, and not get half as emotionally devestated as i do by the image of her, which is really ridiculous. Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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I'm like that sometimes.. if I haven't been taking my will-to-live pills, as I call them.
I used to be more sensitive but I realized that it immobilized me, and also sometimes making a big deal out of something can make it worse directly. Such as if the girl saw you look at her and then look sad for her..it could have made her feel sorry for herself. Maybe you could do something for her..I don't know what...but if you thought really hard about it maybe you could think of something without making her feel like a charity case. There are still certain things I cannot take, even with all my rationalizing. I could never ever work in an animal shelter even though I would love to help them. | |
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Satan said: Natisse said: that's so sweet ...and to answer your question yes I do it just sucks the breath right out of me. i couldn't even finish my skittles. it makes me feel so lame to confess it, but it just gets me sometimes. and it's these tiny little details. i can watch footage of the tsunami, and not get half as emotionally devestated as i do by the image of her, which is really ridiculous. don't ever feel lame to express how you feel there's nothing bad, shameful or anything about it at all...not rediculous at all | |
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sweetserene said: I'm like that sometimes.. if I haven't been taking my will-to-live pills, as I call them.
Skittles? Im very sensitive and empathic (being a trainee counsellor it helps  ) and I get emotional and worry about how that person gets on like U even when I see a really ugly person.
Im like it whenever I look in the mirror. 
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I'm an existentialist...I feel all kinds of stupid stuff. Well not stupid....but I can feel for situations I think most don't. Just the other day I put on the Laurie Anderson Live set recorded just after the 9/11 attacks and her lil speech about how we all have the chance to reflect on whats happened and face the challenge of something...it was a few sentences and very moving. I thought about all that the world has gone through all that we have witnesses and all and it was a bit overwhelming just thinking about it all. Christian Zombie Vampires | |
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sweetserene said: I'm like that sometimes.. if I haven't been taking my will-to-live pills, as I call them.
I used to be more sensitive but I realized that it immobilized me, and also sometimes making a big deal out of something can make it worse directly. Such as if the girl saw you look at her and then look sad for her..it could have made her feel sorry for herself. Maybe you could do something for her..I don't know what...but if you thought really hard about it maybe you could think of something without making her feel like a charity case. There are still certain things I cannot take, even with all my rationalizing. I could never ever work in an animal shelter even though I would love to help them. i am always afraid to do anything for fear of it being or being interpreted as pity. i will say hi, but other than that i am always scared to do anything else. Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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SexLovely said: sweetserene said: I'm like that sometimes.. if I haven't been taking my will-to-live pills, as I call them.
Skittles? Im very sensitive and empathic (being a trainee counsellor it helps ) and I get emotional and worry about how that person gets on like U even when I see a really ugly person.
Im like it whenever I look in the mirror.
is that you in your avatar? Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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superspaceboy said: I'm an existentialist...I feel all kinds of stupid stuff. Well not stupid....but I can feel for situations I think most don't. Just the other day I put on the Laurie Anderson Live set recorded just after the 9/11 attacks and her lil speech about how we all have the chance to reflect on whats happened and face the challenge of something...it was a few sentences and very moving. I thought about all that the world has gone through all that we have witnesses and all and it was a bit overwhelming just thinking about it all.
exactly. Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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I tend to do the same thing...although lately I've been looking (staring when I can) at a wide variety of people and just end up smiling at their presence...they never see me doing it, but there's something beautiful about seeing someone who's physical being may not "fit the mold" but watching them carrying on about life as if it doesn't matter...because in reality it really doesn't. | |
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Byron said: I tend to do the same thing...although lately I've been looking (staring when I can) at a wide variety of people and just end up smiling at their presence...they never see me doing it, but there's something beautiful about seeing someone who's physical being may not "fit the mold" but watching them carrying on about life as if it doesn't matter...because in reality it really doesn't.
and that's part of what kills me about it, is knowing they have mentally probably overcome it, and are okay with it, but knowing how unfair this world is that it would subject them to this, and all the disadvantages they are at... it's hard to word Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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Satan said: Byron said: I tend to do the same thing...although lately I've been looking (staring when I can) at a wide variety of people and just end up smiling at their presence...they never see me doing it, but there's something beautiful about seeing someone who's physical being may not "fit the mold" but watching them carrying on about life as if it doesn't matter...because in reality it really doesn't.
and that's part of what kills me about it, is knowing they have mentally probably overcome it, and are okay with it, but knowing how unfair this world is that it would subject them to this, and all the disadvantages they are at... it's hard to word I think it's more of one projects the pain they would feel into them. As you pointed out they are probably OK with how they are and have dealt. I also think that seeing people who manage with these ailments on a daily basis...it's humbling, as you realize a normal day for you and for them is quite different. Christian Zombie Vampires | |
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superspaceboy said: Satan said: and that's part of what kills me about it, is knowing they have mentally probably overcome it, and are okay with it, but knowing how unfair this world is that it would subject them to this, and all the disadvantages they are at... it's hard to word I think it's more of one projects the pain they would feel into them. As you pointed out they are probably OK with how they are and have dealt. I also think that seeing people who manage with these ailments on a daily basis...it's humbling, as you realize a normal day for you and for them is quite different. actually, you are probably right. i am more than likely projecting a lot of this. good point. Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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Satan said: superspaceboy said: I think it's more of one projects the pain they would feel into them. As you pointed out they are probably OK with how they are and have dealt. I also think that seeing people who manage with these ailments on a daily basis...it's humbling, as you realize a normal day for you and for them is quite different. actually, you are probably right. i am more than likely projecting a lot of this. good point. Yeah, I agree with you both...
I think I end up smiling because I appreciate their presence (their soul's presence, no matter what the physical form) as I appreciate everyone's...perhaps moreso those who may end up being seen as how they compare to the conventional ideas of what we're supposed to look like or what our bodies are supposed to be like. As well as, often the people I see here just walking around in San Bernardino tend to be older...so I find myself focusing on them as I pass by, seeing a history of their life, imagining them as kids, as someone's sister or brother...imagining them laughing, crying..just living. I always end up smiling as I do... | |
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Satan said: i am far too sensitive of a person, i know this. i am entirely too empathetic, and tend to absorb other peoples pain.
today at work i was sitting in the internet cafe, and a class of newbies let out. they were walking very quickly, trying to get to lunch, i assume. and then one of the came out the door, and she was moving very slowly, as she has that leg condition, where she takes a step, and like the knee goes back a little, and the one leg is shorter than the other, i have no idea what it is called. and she is moving as fast as she can, but it's like only half the pace of the others, who are swarming past her. it just made me want to cry. and of course, being the moron i am, i dwelled on it and start worrying about this girl will never meet someone who loves her, will never get married, ect. i just wanted to hold her and cry for her. god, i hate the world sometimes. anyone else have these little moments, or is it just me? [Edited 2/8/05 15:47pm] Are you a Pisces??!! I cry at commercials. I totally know what you're feeling. I feel it every day  2010: Healing the Wounds of the Past.... http://prince.org/msg/8/325740 | |
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Byron said: Satan said: actually, you are probably right. i am more than likely projecting a lot of this. good point. Yeah, I agree with you both...
I think I end up smiling because I appreciate their presence (their soul's presence, no matter what the physical form) as I appreciate everyone's...perhaps moreso those who may end up being seen as how they compare to the conventional ideas of what we're supposed to look like or what our bodies are supposed to be like. As well as, often the people I see here just walking around in San Bernardino tend to be older...so I find myself focusing on them as I pass by, seeing a history of their life, imagining them as kids, as someone's sister or brother...imagining them laughing, crying..just living. I always end up smiling as I do... that's a good approach to it. will try that next time it happens Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Satan said: i am far too sensitive of a person, i know this. i am entirely too empathetic, and tend to absorb other peoples pain.
today at work i was sitting in the internet cafe, and a class of newbies let out. they were walking very quickly, trying to get to lunch, i assume. and then one of the came out the door, and she was moving very slowly, as she has that leg condition, where she takes a step, and like the knee goes back a little, and the one leg is shorter than the other, i have no idea what it is called. and she is moving as fast as she can, but it's like only half the pace of the others, who are swarming past her. it just made me want to cry. and of course, being the moron i am, i dwelled on it and start worrying about this girl will never meet someone who loves her, will never get married, ect. i just wanted to hold her and cry for her. god, i hate the world sometimes. anyone else have these little moments, or is it just me? [Edited 2/8/05 15:47pm] Are you a Pisces??!! I cry at commercials. I totally know what you're feeling. I feel it every day i'm a gemini Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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Aw, Satan!  This thread itself is making me want to cry. I'm like that too but I hate feeling bad/sorry for other people who appear less better off than me on the surface. I always feel like I will end up saying or doing the wrong thing and in the end worsen the situation.
I hate being such an emotional water sign. Just like SupaFunkyOrgangrinder I can't get through any movie without sobbing uncontrollably. | |
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EmeraldCity said: Aw, Satan!
This thread itself is making me want to cry. I'm like that too but I hate feeling bad/sorry for other people who appear less better off than me on the surface. I always feel like I will end up saying or doing the wrong thing and in the end worsen the situation.
I hate being such an emotional water sign. Just like SupaFunkyOrgangrinder I can't get through any movie without sobbing uncontrollably. it like sucks the breath right out of me sometimes, it's a horrid feeling. and then the moment passes, but god, it kills me when it's in that moment Be sure to pick up a copy of my book "Are You There God? It's Me, Satan" in stores now! | |
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All I know is that the SATAN I know doesn't give a fuck but that would lead to the obvious question of who the hell you are | |
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I think that's part of why I became a social worker; instead of always feeling powerless or whining all of the time, I make myself an advocate for those who are willing and we "do the work". I see/hear some of the shittiest things firsthand and it's difficult, but on the flip-side, I'm also able to effect change. There's nothing as fulfilling as seeing progress, change, growth and love come from what was once seen as an impossible situation.
Humanity is also amazingly beautiful that way. Sometimes the people you had the least amount of hope for are the very ones who pull through.  | |
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Im a very sensitive person as well. I am just very sympathetic to other peoples pain. My whole family is like that really. I cant help it. I remember seeing a dead cat on the corner when I was about 4 years old. It was the first time that I had ever seen a dead animal and it made such an emotional impact on my spirit that I still remember it 20 years later. I believe that everything on earth is 1. And when some part of the earth hurts, we all hurt. It may be subconscious, but its pain nevertheless, which is why we should take care of each other and our environment. If u dont believe me, take a look at our eco-system. I digress. | |
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As long as you don't shut off completely, you're good.
Then we could sell you as a coffee table. I could use a new one. | |
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Satan said: i am far too sensitive of a person, i know this. i am entirely too empathetic, and tend to absorb other peoples pain.
today at work i was sitting in the internet cafe, and a class of newbies let out. they were walking very quickly, trying to get to lunch, i assume. and then one of the came out the door, and she was moving very slowly, as she has that leg condition, where she takes a step, and like the knee goes back a little, and the one leg is shorter than the other, i have no idea what it is called. and she is moving as fast as she can, but it's like only half the pace of the others, who are swarming past her. it just made me want to cry. and of course, being the moron i am, i dwelled on it and start worrying about this girl will never meet someone who loves her, will never get married, ect. i just wanted to hold her and cry for her. god, i hate the world sometimes. anyone else have these little moments, or is it just me? [Edited 2/8/05 15:47pm]  ...but your name is Satan | |
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Satan said: SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy said: Are you a Pisces??!! I cry at commercials. I totally know what you're feeling. I feel it every day i'm a gemini Yes, I feel your pain. I've been earning a lot more money lately. Maybe it's guilt, but I saw this guy driving a crappy car and he had duct tape for a window and it was raining. I told my boyfriend that soon I would be giving money to people on the streets. That I would just, as in the case of the guy with no window, walk up to them and say HERE. It's just something I need to do. There have been times when the feeling of others' pain is so overwhelming, especially children and animals, that I just don't want to go on living anymore. BUT, the old Gemini switch goes off when I least expect it, and there are times that I JUST DON'T GIVE A SHIT. | |
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gemini13 said: BUT, the old Gemini switch goes off when I least expect it, and there are times that I JUST DON'T GIVE A SHIT.
Surprising to find out Satan was a Gemini because this is the only Gemini I've ever known. . [Edited 2/10/05 9:20am] 2010: Healing the Wounds of the Past.... http://prince.org/msg/8/325740 | |
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i'm a sensitive person too. i cry at the drop of a dime, so don't feel like you are the only one... I will forever love and miss you...my sweet Prince. | |
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Satan said: i am far too sensitive of a person, i know this. i am entirely too empathetic, and tend to absorb other peoples pain.
today at work i was sitting in the internet cafe, and a class of newbies let out. they were walking very quickly, trying to get to lunch, i assume. and then one of the came out the door, and she was moving very slowly, as she has that leg condition, where she takes a step, and like the knee goes back a little, and the one leg is shorter than the other, i have no idea what it is called. and she is moving as fast as she can, but it's like only half the pace of the others, who are swarming past her. it just made me want to cry. and of course, being the moron i am, i dwelled on it and start worrying about this girl will never meet someone who loves her, will never get married, ect. i just wanted to hold her and cry for her. god, i hate the world sometimes. anyone else have these little moments, or is it just me? [Edited 2/8/05 15:47pm] ummm eye knew a girl like that once, she went to school, was the best in class, was married to a great husband, drove a car, etc etc... eye feel worse 4 those of us who are fully capable and bitch all the time | |
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Slave2daGroove said: All I know is that the SATAN I know doesn't give a fuck but that would lead to the obvious question of who the hell you are
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