...when I am putting out the garbage, I breathe in the fresh night air and think I would just like to run away and never come back.

but where to? Nowhere is as nice as right here.

Then I think maybe everyone else should run away instead, and leave me to have a moment's peace.

but I would miss them all SO MUCH it hurts to even think about it.

Once I've taken that deep breath and had a moment of peace (out there next to the wheelie bins), I can turn around and bravely go back inside and FACE THE MAYHEM.

i totally understand !!

Mach said:

A kindred soul. How many have you got?

4 but 2 adult ( one grand and one on the way )

2 teenage @ home

for me...isnt that so much i wanna run from

my mom has alzheimers 2 and thats hard right now

but every day is a blessing

I understand you too, I think it is a global feeling for mothers

Mach said:

That is tough sweetheart, I helped to nurse my grandfather through Alzheimers and it was a massively draining experience but one I would never change.
I miss him terribly even though it is 7 years now since he fell asleep.
I know what you are going through for you and your family

Love you grandad stay well wherever you are
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Kayleigh said:

i had mine 2 ...yrs before children

must be a gypsie

mdiver said:

~ smiles ~ yup

each day is a blessing

i know... that one day i will miss her zany crazy ways ...



blessings to you and yours and to your Grandad ... where ever it is he found peace






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Mach said:

Thanks Mach much appreciated if you ever need a chat.....

mdiver said:

~ smiles through a few random tears ~

thanx !!


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Mach said:

No worries and I mean it note me if you want my number, I know how tough it is and someone outside the loop can be helpful.

For a VERY long time I lived with that exact feeling.

Thankfully I'm happier now.

Sweeny79 said:

I'm glad. Don't get me wrong though, I am not UNhappy, it's just this fleeting feeling, I don't live with it. There are so many other things to fill my life too, I don't feel "trapped" being a mother, thank goodness - but the noise of 3 under 4 takes it's toll on my sanity (and my ears) at times!

Mach said:

Hang in there