...in the power of prayer, I sure could use some.
There were points when I believed I was at my lowest point. But now I feel this may be the lowest. I believe there are reasons for everything, and that God will answer eventually. But in the last month things seem to be getting worse. I try to be optimistic, keeping my head up, and laughing when I can. But I'm finding it harder and harder to do so lately. To the point of wanting it all to end. But I know better. I've never been at this point in my life. Feeling total despair. Don't interpret this as a 'woe is me' story. For I do not pity myself or play the victim role. I remain truely grateful for the things I have, and am able to do. Many if not all of the things that have happened this year have been out of my control. I'm just trying to understand, why. When things good, it seems as if someone decides to open the ground below me and I fall into nothingness.


This year has been perhaps the worst for me. My best friend passing due to a Dr.'s mistake. Being in and out of the hospital/ER, family problems, and now job & financial despair. But I still hope. And I've not sat on my ass just hoping. I'm going about things with confidence, and belief; putting everything I have into making things better and how they should be. (maybe I shouldn't be posting here and doing something else right. ) Anyway...


Again I find myself at an uncertain time in my life, and I'm getting tired yet again of it all. To the point of tears on a daily basis. No sugar coating here. It sucks. Why am I sharing this with you? I don't know. Just a place to vent I guess. I know others of you are going through similar situations and realize I'm not the only one. But being the only one you have, sometimes invites the feeling of hoplessness. Now is one of those times.
Whether or not you believe; I ask nothing more than a prayer. And I will give one in return. All I have now is a prayer. I only hope that God hears it.
Thanks Guys.

My love and prayer to you!

i will being doing a group prayer for you sweetie. i have been there too still paying off dr. bills but my health has been restored. remember if God brings you to it, He will bring you through it as well. i think that is why i am a loner, just been though so much and not looking for hurt or problems anymore.

may you choose to surround yourself with healing energies ...

a white light towards you


and best of wishes

I know exactly how you feel! I have this posted at my desk, when I need it it is there:

"If God brings you to it, He will bring you through it.

Lord, I love you and I need you to come into my heart today, for without you I can do nothing."

It is my daily devotion and at the times when I don't know if I can make it, it has helped me understand that my journey is destined and only God knows what the future holds for me and the things puts in our lives is for a reason only he knows.

Rest knowing that your best is yet to come!

G

You're in my thoughts (and preyers too)

for

ella731

Muse2NOPharaoh

rachel3

Mach

Geritzla

Kayleigh

thank u.

Aww Chico

I'll pray for you too.

Chico I have you in my thougts and my prayers.

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Sweeny79

SupaFunkyOrgangrinderSexy

thank u.

for the 'annonymous' org notes.

thank u!

Sending some up for you, Chico1...

for

xpsiter

thank u!

I go through what seems very similar a few times a year. Dark days where its all I can do to get out of bed in the morning and I cry at the drop of a hat. And then... something lifts. Its never failed to lift. Not once. Sometimes when I'm at my happiest/most content I write it all down. Or just even make a mental note of exactly how I'm feeling. That's what gets me through later, when it gets bad again. No doubt you have your own ways of making it through...

I'm not the prayer type, but you're in my thoughts and I'll send all my positive energy your way.

Like Carrie I am not the praying kind, but you will be in my caring thoughts.

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CarrieMpls

Teacher

thank u!



I do write Carrie. Quite a lot. It helps at times. Lately though, finding an inspiration has been that much more difficult. But I'll try. Thanks.

Sweetie...

It's always darkest before the dawn.

The last couple years of my life have been like you described, especially in terms of health. So I understand how you are feeling.

I know it gets hard when life seems so hopeless and the struggles seem unending and you feel so full of despair and lonliness. Try, each day, to find one positive thing, no matter how small or insignificant it might seem, to focus on and appreciate, and that makes you feel happy (even if only for awhile)...sometimes, for me, that thing might just be watching a favorite movie or buying myself a cheap $2 lipstick, or the satisfaction that I managed to knit something with no mistakes. Small things aren't really so small as they seem when they can keep you going for one more day, or one more hour.

And keep reminding yourself that nothing lasts forever. Though it might seem it will never end, there *will* be an end to your pain and struggle. Your life IS going to be happy again.

My thoughts and love to you.

for you

Every prayer I have, is yours my friend..

I can speak from definite experience, Chico...your prayer and faith will come thru for you.

By the way...if you can, pick up a copy of "The Joy Of Believing Prayer", by Joyce Meyer. It gave me a deeper reminder of my beliefs in prayer and inner truths...and if you can't find it, let me know I'll mail you mine.

Hang in there...

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.

And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.

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VinaBlue

SnowQueen

MrJoker

Byron

thank U!

MrJoker said:

I have to admit. I've never been a fan of the Beatles. But I do remember that song vividly from my childhood. It would always make me cry. Always loved that song. And now, really reading those lyrics, it means so much. Thank you MrJoker.

Continuously and forever... Knowing how you feel breaks my heart Chico.

You know I love you very much and I am always here for you.

Freespirit said:

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FreeSpirit

thank u.

I've been there and had to get through it Chico.

Sometimes things have to get to that point before they can begin to get better.

The awareness and realizing what things help to counter the feeling you're in now I hope will begin to grow as they did for me.

It all takes time, and in that time it can get better, it's in how you channel it.

Right now you can help choose to channel it into doing things that help yourself and use those emotions that make you feel despair and turn it into going on the right road towards finding your mindset that helps you.

It's possible-and it just takes time and knowing that everybody has ups and downs-just part of life.

Stuff for me that helps is writing stuff out-just venting on paper always works or just listening to music that you know will help your mood.

Perspective is a big thing too-this isn't something that overtakes you without a fight-it's something that's able to be beaten. Simple as that.

Letting and being able to get yourself to that point and hanging in there isn't easy in the slightest, but it's worth it.

I hope you find that-you're a cool cat.

I'm thinking of ya and if you need somebody to talk to or advice, since I've gone through it myself let me know.



(If I don't stop being serious I'll explode so here's a )

Dear Heavenly Father,

I lift my brother Chico, up to you on this day. I don't him or his problems, but we all hit a wall and need help at times.

Reveal yourself to him and his life, help him understand why he's going through the things he is, give him the peace and comfort... that only you can give.

Touch him and the people around him, bless him with your Love, and turn his tears of sorrow... into tears of joy.

Most of all Father, renew his hope. Let him realize that things wont stay the same forever. At some point his life will turn around for the better, and your child... well, he will be happy again.

Bless his life and give him the will and understanding... to live a life, that will bless those around him, but more importantly, glorify You.

We love you and we thank you for all you've done, in his life.

In the mighty and powerful name of Jesus. Amen.

Enjoy...