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loner and recovering misanthrope here  In spite of the cost of living, it's still popular. |
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Social outcast by nature. Could be many reasons for that: I'm deeply shy and extremely mistrustful, plus rare were those who entered "my world" (that is to say "I shared my story with").
Most of the time I enjoy spending time alone; my loneliness is my shelter. I'm not trying to belong to any groups cuz they just bug me and people paint a wrong picture of me in their mind, for that I always feel misunderstood. Peace & Love is what I believe in, make-believes frighten me. All my friends are all very differents and come from different backgrounds, but respecting eachother (and being all social outcast) is (at least) what we all have in common. Is there any place of refuge one can flee from this insanity | |
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This ain't gonna lead to suiside threads is it?
Seriously though,I feel ur pain, maybe listening to prince made u an outcast.....honestly, music tastes reflect ur world outlook at times.....that is y I don't hear so called intelligent artists as they just tell me what to think etc.....I just like to dance and listen to a corny ballad maybe! But we go through music fazes as a kid and teen especially and when i changed back to cornier types of music that were generally upbeat, I felt better..... but I guess u have to be willing to embrace other music at first..... This is just what happened to me though, and is no world view shared by many others! By the way, I feel like an outcast on this site but I don't give a shit most of the time, at least though people hear like u sinister! 
Anyone sing to themselves down the street? I do that shit all the time.....I'm weird in that respect but I guess I'm happy most the time! No pride is a good thing by the way.....Or at least having little pride! | |
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sinister said: I have no real place I fit in.....I don't belong to any groups or hang with family or friends...I used too but even then I was never fully comfortable with it. I would end up wandering off to a dark corner or somewhere off alone. I decided to make my own group....my own spot and let people come in and hang with me instead of the other way around. That didn't work either unless they were outcasts like me...I have always been accepted into almost all social circles I never felt excluded, but I just don't enjoy being around it for some reason. I am extremely comfortable in my own skin and don't mind being with just me, myself and I....So last night I was thinking I really don't have a place to go....Just to the place I made for myself and Im the only one there. It's a bit difficult to explain so sorry if this does not make sense....
It makes perfect sense.  | |
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I am still an outcast. | |
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im an ocial soutcast..... | |
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Hey Sin.. I hear ya loud and clear..
It is also much appreciated that you open up your thoughts this way.. prove me wrong | |
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So I was about to have a pity party because I was at Target--On a Saturday Night--by myself--buying paper towels and dog toys. Before I even went into my profession I was one of those that had a few close friends, was not in the "in crowd" in school, and then was not conservative as a minister. LAWD! Loneliness and a bit of "outcast" are a part of the dangers of my profession, I think. But I too, enjoy time to myself and all--it just gets to me sometimes..and sometimes more than others. | |
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sinister said: I have no real place I fit in.....I don't belong to any groups or hang with family or friends...I used too but even then I was never fully comfortable with it. I would end up wandering off to a dark corner or somewhere off alone. I decided to make my own group....my own spot and let people come in and hang with me instead of the other way around. That didn't work either unless they were outcasts like me...I have always been accepted into almost all social circles I never felt excluded, but I just don't enjoy being around it for some reason. I am extremely comfortable in my own skin and don't mind being with just me, myself and I....So last night I was thinking I really don't have a place to go....Just to the place I made for myself and Im the only one there. It's a bit difficult to explain so sorry if this does not make sense....
For me it's about respect.....If I don't respect you in some shape or form I don't want to be around you. Even then if when I do find friends I respect I can only tolerate being around them for only so long before I got to go or they got to go. Im still getting used to this attention I get now because of my looks...I have been ignored in that area for all my life and since I turned 25 I have started getting attention from women. On the org it's a big joke to me the attention I get...I can't take any of it seriously though flattering as it is I know my limits and have a realistic view of myself, and my confidence does not come from others so I don't buy the hype. But now that at work and other places im getting talked to and approached more it's a new and strange experience for me. I feel bad for my poor cousin he tries to include me in family stuff (his side of the family) But I don't have time most of the time to go and if I do I just sit there.....So people of the org tell me....are you a alien outcast like me? Don't feel like you belong to the human race? Do I understand where you are? Ohhhhh do I ever.... Looks... they brought me more false assumption then truth... The more I tried to be of right mind about it.. the more certain females came at me instead of to me... ( We are more alike then different... ) I am by far not high on my own supply.... in the least... but afraid to be run over by the oposition posee.... I have had everything from my lack of spelling ability ( After being in the salon industry forever ((20 years)) being aquated with my IQ ( Big ...HUGE error) and in fact I am incredibly lazy in tht area as I down deep am 1) Lazy in that area and 2) couldn't give a good hooba gooba what the nay sayers thought. My looks have come under fire here... Including my mentioning my implants in defense of another who was being maligned.... I didnt have it done to impress another and I didn't take it to heart when it was brought against me in an uneeded assult. I have often thought are the others so blind that they cant see wrong doing when it occurs? I have been thought entirely stupid and taken in for associating with indviduals thought utterly worthless here..... Iam neither as blind or as taken in as they think... nor do I find them utterly worthless. I ponder what causes one so much internal pain that they seek to suffer another.... I am thankful for that ability even though its painful. I often am at major events an isolated within myself.... Just like you Sin... You remarked once that you think too much.... No brother... not too much... You think as God has intended... Where much is given much is required... learn and then step up... make a difference... Let the shallow and silly fall from you... looks are just that... so fleating... find yer path and step to it... often the required classes are the ones we dont even recognize as being taken.... We tend to learn more in life from the plateaus | |
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MarySharon said: I'm not trying to belong to any groups cuz they just bug me and people paint a wrong picture of me in their mind, for that I always feel misunderstood. I've seen it happen where saying something that someone doesn't agree with can get you black listed, or ostracized. I think that unless you've interacted on a more personal level, it seems kind of frivolous to judge someone based on virtual encounters. I wonder if this was a problem with CB radios.  | |
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I really have no life. I spend the weekends alone in record stores, sleeping or generally waiting for time to pass.
Youth sucks. Don't let anyone tell you any different. | |
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UptownDeb said: MarySharon said: I'm not trying to belong to any groups cuz they just bug me and people paint a wrong picture of me in their mind, for that I always feel misunderstood. I've seen it happen where saying something that someone doesn't agree with can get you black listed, or ostracized. I don't think so, at least not for me, I'm open minded enough to share opinions even if some don't agree with me. I'd rather try to understand the reasons why those person made this choice. The more I try to understand people the more I'm learning about them, and the more I'm learning about myself. Most of the time they see me as an outgoing and childish person (because I'm giggling all the time for nothing  ), or the shallow parisian Prince party organizer and dancefloor booty shaker; and when they get to know me a lil' better it's like: "You're fond of literature and poetry?! You didn't seem like! You don't like TV shows?! Err... OK! "
I only really feel confortable with my close friends, so maybe we all belong to a group (   ) and I tend to refuse any invitation coming from people I don't know really well, even if they're not perfect strangers to me. In this case I'd rather stay at home.Is there any place of refuge one can flee from this insanity | |
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Let's see, I'm a young Black man raised in Harlem, but I like Punk & New Wave and my heroes are Prince & Morrissey. You figure it out.
 NEW WAVE FOREVER: SLAVE TO THE WAVE FROM THE CRADLE TO THE GRAVE. | |
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