MrJoker said:

hey sweetie really though, im ok with all this... today wasnt such a bad day, im feelin pretty happy ... so, hug me cuz you want some lovin back, not cuz you think im sad, k ?

other than that....


whats up sexy ?????

nakedpianoplayer said:

Okay, I can do that, too.

what time of the year do you find the worst to be alone ?

what time of the year do you find the worst to be alone ?

Christmas does suck as a time to be alone. I had to work this last Christmas. I thought it wouldn't be too bad, but boy did it ever suck.

MrJoker said:

actually, working on christmas was something i could handle, at least when i lived in new york. the east village was really beautiful on christmas, and believe it or not, all the restaurants and shops are open on christmas! so one year, i stayed home and had christmas with my family over the phone early in the morning, worked, then went shopping and had dinner at an italian restaurant with some friends that evening. it was really wonderful.

i don't think i'd like it so much here in chicago on christmas without some semblance of family. i spent thanksgiving in chicago away from family my first year here with nobody except for my ex, and it was pretty bleak. ALL the restaurants in my part of the city were closed. that's when i learned chicago may be a big city, but it's far different than new york. when the holidays come around in chicago, you go home to your family.

MrJoker said:

actually, working on christmas was something i could handle, at least when i lived in new york. the east village was really beautiful on christmas, and believe it or not, all the restaurants and shops are open on christmas! so one year, i stayed home and had christmas with my family over the phone early in the morning, worked, then went shopping and had dinner at an italian restaurant with some friends that evening. it was really wonderful.

I work in the medical records department at a hospital. There were so many "death histories" coming through that day that it was very depressing.

Anxiety said:

Now THAT sounds like my kind of Xmas. I hate Xmas.


bah humbug.


As for being alone, If you mean serious relationships, I'm perpetually alone. That's just me, that's the way I am. I can't imagine trying to even live with another person at this point. Sure, once in a while I think it might be nice to have sweetie to cuddle with, but there are so many good things about being single. At the end of the day, you've got to answer to yourself, first.

nakedpianoplayer said:

Same as above. You just typed my life story there as well... execpt opposite, I'm a man looking for my muse.

LovesexyIsThe1 said:

Muse2NOPharoah!! where are you!?!?! someone is looking for you!!

fantasyislander said:

Yeah, and me too.

MrJoker said:

you're looking for muse tonight too? wow! she's a popular girl tonight!! i don't think she'll enjoy that coke you have for her though . . .

fantasyislander said:

That's the point.

I haste it and there is nothing that says I have to like it!

This isn't orgish but it is Karenish so take it as that.... Last year I disdained the loneliness and busying myself with parties and people didn't quail that. However, I have felt the Lord wanting to get closer to me.... Reminding me I wasn't alone..... I insisted that man doesn't live by spirit alone.... After all it is he who started the Adam and Eve gig.. I insisted he comply then I would meet him all the way..... As per usual he reminded me he isn't about to start doing things my way... but that he loves me.
A friend looked at me and said Karen ya know why he doesn't want to do it your way? BECAUSE HE IS SMARTER THEN YOU.....

I think it is time I give him a shot... If I knew so much about the life running business I would have arrived by now.... Maybe there is more... Wait... I know there is more... this holiday insead of feeling sorry for myself I am going to give it to him...

All and all I know how you feel... deeply!