I never lose faith...

I hope the relationship I have mirrors the one I have with nature... a relationship where I feel at peace and content when surrounded by it....where I can just sit within her presence, and see/feel the beauty of the world and of Life all around me...where I always feel welcomed, and where she consistently shows me her beauty and strength always, no matter what mood I may be in, no matter what flaws I may bring...that's what it's like when I'm out alone within nature, it really does feel like I have a relationship with all that's around me (and in reality, I do...we all do).

Some days, I feel confident that type of relationship will be my everyday reality soon enough. Other days....I just find myself appreciating all that I do have now, without worrying whether or not that vision of relationship will take concrete form in my everyday life.
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i knew you would be the one to reply

yes, remind me, k ???

and, thanks for being there

Don't forget to make that appointment at the Tatoo parlor

hi sugar, how are ya

Me too. And I bet he has a vagina!

I wish I could be attracted to women cuz emotionally it would be much easier for me to connect.

You know Byron, I don't really do boys anymore but dammit, MARRY ME.

I will always believe in love. My ex of six years seriously fucked over me but I know the love of my life is out there.

I've lost faith. I suppose that I've just given up trying. I'm not sad about it...it's just the way it is.

Thanks, honey

for you too!

But, I'm ok... I'm not sad. I just have let go.

I'm ok, too... The hug was a hug of friendship, of well wishes and of comfort..

Well...thanks

What are you needing to "let go" of??...

need

Need for...????

They type of relationship I have envisioned. Also, I've given up the expectation of that as well. I went through a bit of a mourning period, but I feel sort of...free.

Never give up on the type of relationship you envision (unless that vision is an unhealthy one)...patience may be needed, but hope and desire are a powerful combination..

Thanks for the kind words But, it's already done.

It can be undone, because doing so is merely making yet another decision...nothing more.

But, I don't want it to be undone.

And I don't want you to settle for something less than you deserve out of "letting go"...

Awww... I won't do that, either.

I think you are like em.. trying to find a carrot in a butchers shop...


You gotta look properly.. and know what you really want.