Having a as I type.

~Beautiful time talking last night. Thank you. A lot happened today at work... well, there is always enlightenment at work in some form or another. I want to start a thread... although the energy needed to write in such profoundness is not quite within me at the moment. I am holding on to the moment within. So many of these moments exist in my everyday life.

Let me just say this... if you were dying and knew it...and had already accepted your motality...

your body is shutting down... no longer digesting food properly. Yet, there are still dreams... still hopes, beautiful moments (family, life, friends, children) of the past and present still in existence.

Well... today this beautiful elderly lady that I have known for some time is dying at this moment. Yes, it is a part of my job I face everyday, yet I face it will beauty... with "time well spent and appreciation" for all it's worth. So when they ask for things... I do whatever is in my power to get what they are wishing/hoping for, I will make it myself or gain it myself if I can.

This beautiful soul has not been eating for days... she is unable to swallow. It is painfully sad... although as the body begins it's journey to it's end... there are these familiar patterns that take place. In a unexplainable sense... she is starving, literally... and the body can no longer function the physical life form.

Sorry... to say all this... although today, as I went in to check for anything she may want... again she said, "no thank you honey, I am fine... thank you very much." Then, out of the blue... she said, "well... I would love a piece of Lemon Meringue Pie." Of course at that point... my mind began to go through it's mental search of dessert options we have in the hospital kitchen...

I knew we did not have Lemon Meringue Pie... we have the lemon bar, although no... what she was envisioning was a real piece of Lemon Meringue Pie.

So my mission began to gain a Lemon Meringue Pie and deliver it to her at lunch time.

Well... I ordered a pie from Marie Calendars... and yes did infact deliver it to her personally at lunch time.

You know... all I can think of... time and time again... is...

What if that was the last request or craving she ever had while physically here... and never received what her last wish, whatever it be. Some wishes are obtainable... actually there is so much that is possible... yet there are those last wishes that can not be obtained for various reason, although one must always attempt all before the moment arrives.

My beautiful friend Karen... these days consume me... there is always something I can do to give that one wish eternal life.

I breathe this sense of awareness everyday, whether I speak about it or not.... it lives inside me continuously.

.....

If you could see her beautiful smile.... ear to ear... just to see that Lemon Meringue Pie, gain a small taste or sense of it... ~Gosh I could just cry. It's a beautiful thing actually... a moment/memory that will always live within me.. and I truly have a millions inside.

~Deepest of sigh...


[Edited 9/4/04 18:40pm]

You made me cry!

Muse2NOPharaoh said:

It can be beautifullly strange how people react to me... They may not always know what words to say... although... I know what they are saying from inside.

Many times... I get to hear their very own souls speak, hear about their life... their fears, their joys and their anger. I grow everyday through every experience... it's overwhelming.

Endless 's most definitely...

I love you/your friendship... I just cannot thank you enough.

Freespirit said:

I adore you! My love to you too my friend!

Hope you don't mind I saved what you wrote!