sonshine said:

Every day is a variation of denial, depression, anger, and reluctant acceptance. Because realistically its the only choice we have. Some days still sting and those are the days I don't want to believe what's happened. Some days I just miss his presence, that hes not at PP right now working or relaxing or whatever. Those are sad days. And some days I get so angry because it wasn't supposed to happen this way. It wasn't supposed to go down like this. And i want to throw something, or break something. I try to focus on moving and looking forward. A fan since '82, Prince is literally woven into the fabric of my entire adult life. It's going to take some time. I don't even expect to go back to how it felt pre-April 21st. I'm looking foward to the day it just feels alright again.

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Yea, it's just a day-to-day process. In time, the pain will be less. Nothing is the same without Prince. I get sad thinking that his presence is no longer in PP. His spirit will always be there. He was so full of energy and had such an amazing spirit.

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Sometimes I sit and just say to myself "What happened to you, Prince?"

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If he could only tell us.

sux

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[Edited 12/7/16 1:49am]

3rdeyeboy said:

NinaB said:

3rdeyeboy said:

I'm just glad I have all 7 of his albums to listen to and keep me sane.

Although we have all his music to celebrate his life, some days it´s impossible to hold back an insistent tear. Today is one of these days.

DiamondsnPearls44 said:

NinaB said:

DiamondsnPearls44 said:

Hahaha!

What?! I get it. My bad. He had 8 albums, not 7. I forgot the Fresh Prince soundtrack.

3rdeyeboy said:

3rdeyeboy said:

NinaB said:

DiamondsnPearls44 said: Hahaha!

What?! I get it. My bad. He had 8 albums, not 7. I forgot the Fresh Prince soundtrack.

3rdeyeboy said:

sonshine said:

3rdeyeboy said:

What?! I get it. My bad. He had 8 albums, not 7. I forgot the Fresh Prince soundtrack.

I'm going to need you to try harder to actually be funny. Unless of course you were really intending to just be a snarky, whiney little bitch who is for some inexplicable reason jealous of the newbies on the org. Now THAT would be hilarious.

Ok. New effort.

Q. How many Prince fans does it take to change a light bulb?

A. None. They prefer a large room with no light.

3rdeyeboy said:

NinaB said:

3rdeyeboy said:

Ok. New effort.

Q. How many Prince fans does it take to change a light bulb?

A. None. They prefer a large room with no light.

At least someone gets it!

3rdeyeboy said:

3rdeyeboy said:

sonshine said:

3rdeyeboy said: I'm going to need you to try harder to actually be funny. Unless of course you were really intending to just be a snarky, whiney little bitch who is for some inexplicable reason jealous of the newbies on the org. Now THAT would be hilarious.

Ok. New effort.

Q. How many Prince fans does it take to change a light bulb?

A. None. They prefer a large room with no light.

sonshine said:

3rdeyeboy said:

Ok. New effort.

Q. How many Prince fans does it take to change a light bulb?

A. None. They prefer a large room with no light.

Meh, still not funny. Sorry. I stand by my original analysis of your motivation. But hey I'm glad you are having fun. That's what it's all about after all. (I'm not even going to point out the fact that some attitudes here are the antithesis of members of a particular artist's fan site. It's just too obvious.)

You had me at hello.

3rdeyeboy said:

NinaB said:

DiamondsnPearls44 said: Hahaha!

What?! I get it. My bad. He had 8 albums, not 7. I forgot the Fresh Prince soundtrack.

OMG....

novabrkr said:

By the way, the first stage is denial, not anger.

It goes:

Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression

Acceptance

With "celebrity deaths", I think one can get "thrown back" to an earlier stage too. It's because they can be present via recorded media in a completely different way than with family members and so on. Songs can be touching in a way that mere photographs or video clips of a family member just doing mundane things can't.

Just some information on the Stages of Grief. I'm a LMSW and have worked as a hospice social worker, had to counsel them and their families.

When Kubler-Ross first developed the Stages of Grief, she was doing so based upon what an individual goes through when they are told they are dying. It was later that it was applied to individuals that have lost a loved one. Today, the general public see it as more related to those that have lost a loved one and do not associate it with someone who has been diagnosed as terminal as much.

They are stages of grief, not steps. Some people may start their grieving process at the anger stage, skipping right over denial. Others may start with bargaining. There is no stepping from one stage to the next, so saying that it goes in a particular order is erroneous. It is more truthful to say that an individual can find themself anywhere along the stages during the period of mourning. They can go from anger to depression to bargaining to acceptance to denial to anger to acceptance to bargaining to denial throughout the grieving process. When I was working with hospice patients, I often found, however, they would reach the acceptance stage towards the middle to early end and remain there, while their family members often bounced through the stages at various times and back through others towards the end and it was often not until after their loved one had passed that they would finally find some kind of acceptance.

That's just an FYI for everyone. Didn't want you to think I was just signaling you out, but your post kind of struck me when I saw you had stated the first stage is denial. Usually it's listed that way, and that is the way it is taught, but not everyone will experience denial first.

3rdeyeboy said:

Bluu said:

Calmer than I was.

Think I've numbed myself for much of the 6 months.

I've barely tapped into my anger and kind of wish I would. Not healthy to bottle up emotions but sadly, that's my M.O.

Trying to figure out what death really is. Working it out in my head.... coming to terms with his transition and learning not to fear death. Learning that dead doesn't mean 'gone' or 'lost' or ended. Just transition and continuation in another form.

Miss him. Know his soul lives. But I miss him. . He took a part of me with him. It's okay though. because it was his to keep.

Not a day goes by I don't have him in my mind.

(((((((((((((Bluu))))))))))))))) I think he took a part of all of us with him and left a part of himself with all of us.

sonshine said:

sonshine said:

3rdeyeboy said:

You had me at hello.

Ok. Seriously tho we all have something in common why can't y'all just get along?

I'm with ya! I don't see why everyone shouldn't get along, but for some reason (and I can't fathom why), there was an influx of new fams post April 16, who feel its more important to tell fans what is right/wrong, rather than accept its an opinion contrary to their own.

Couple that with their idolisation threads (masked guilt for being a fairweather fan), and very quickly, a long running community becomes damaged.

Robert, I was at both Atlanta shows, too. The first up in the balcony and the 2nd in Orchestra. The first show was very mellow, very subdued. Something didn't feel complete with it. I just thought it was me and the lady that was yelling in my ear the entire time so that I had a hard time hearing him. Everytime it would get quiet she would yell, "I love you Prince!" and then laugh and say, "he heard me that time". I bought some things during one of the encores (tour merchandise) and they gave me a box to put it in that has "Prince Program" on a sticker on the box and when I got back to my seat, she was asking me what I had and started to reach in my box to look through it. I pulled it away from her and told her it was gifts for friends. She was really drunk, which didn't make that first show all that pleasant for me from that perspective, but I loved seeing him and being in his presence, nevertheless.

The 2nd show, he came out energized and it was like a switch had been thrown. The whole venue was energized. Much different feel. It was powerful and alive and he put everything in that second show. Truly amazing to see 2 shows in one night and the difference between the two.

But grief -- I have days now where I can go through and be okay. I have other days where it will suddenly hit me that he is gone and if I'm driving, I have to pull to the side of the road and cry, or try to hold it together until I can get stopped. I'm still trying to figure out why his ... why it's hit me so hard. I can only say that it is because he was such a big part of my life. My 2 best friends became my friends through our love of his music. We met because of him. Because of him I got the internet and found his website, and began to venture away from home where the majority of my family remains and have never lived away or even travelled from that one small area of that state. Because of him, I found my voice and came out of my shell. That process started in The Holy River chat room. Prior to The River, I was very quiet, withdrawn, shy, timid. Once I found The River and started meeting people of like mind, I began to open up, to bloom. I always felt misunderstood, felt that I didn't belong anywhere, that I was a nobody. Then I went to my first concert and was drawn to him and needed to find out more about him, found The River, and found myself. And it all began because of him.

I guess when someone is instrumental in helping you to discover yourself, to explore the world, introduces you to people you would never have met had it not been for him and his music, and through his music and words it seems that he has reached deeply into you and knew you better than you knew yourself and it took his music to help you know yourself better, then when they are gone, whether you met them in person or not, a void opens up, space they filled, and someone that is larger than life, the way he was, your left with trying to find some way to fill the space, and realizing there isn't anything else to fill that space with, except your self. And right now, I guess I want to feel that space rather than filling it, because it reminds me of just how much he did for me and he didn't even know me.

Yeah, today is one of those not so good days.

3rdeyeboy said:

3rdeyeboy said:

sonshine said:

3rdeyeboy said: Ok. Seriously tho we all have something in common why can't y'all just get along?

I'm with ya! I don't see why everyone shouldn't get along, but for some reason (and I can't fathom why), there was an influx of new fams post April 16, who feel its more important to tell fans what is right/wrong, rather than accept its an opinion contrary to their own.

Couple that with their idolisation threads (masked guilt for being a fairweather fan), and very quickly, a long running community becomes damaged.

Unfortunately, it's not just the new fams. Some of the older fams seem to have found a following with the newer fams and they seem to feed off each other. It's sad, but because of some of them, I have been keeping away from this forum and the associated artists forum because it gets bad. I've even wondered whether it was time to leave. But, I have enjoyed the org for too many years and have friends that I can ony communicate with here, and would miss otherwise, so I stick around. I've been a member of p.org since the purple and black days and remember when it changed over. I only recently changed back to my original name here on the org.

[Edited 10/21/16 19:54pm]

I've accepted that but still miss P badly.