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Thread started 05/03/16 3:09pm

mcknzlrk

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Having an extremely hard time

I have finally started to go through all of my Prince albums and upload the ones I havent had on my iPod to my computer, then I found an array of interviews and preformances I have had hidden on a hard drive, and I watched them. I am filled with utter despair and dread. I don't want to live in a world without Prince. He helped me immensley growing up and into adulthood and seeing him and dancing with him on stage when I was fifteen was the best thing that has ever happened to me. I am so heartbroken, how are you coping with this? I know I am not the only one. Every day that passes is hurting more, its not getting any better. Will this be the only way I can listen to his music? Will I ever be able to see his face again without crying? It scares me.

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Reply #1 posted 05/03/16 3:11pm

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I know how you feel. neutral confused sad

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Reply #2 posted 05/03/16 3:13pm

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"With love, there is no death" - C. Tracy

PRINCE: the only man who could wear high heels and makeup and STILL steal your woman!
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Reply #3 posted 05/03/16 3:20pm

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I kinda always thought Prince was the one thing in my life I could count on. And now that is gone. So it's been pretty hard for me too. If you sift through the last week of thread titles you will see there are a ton of others that feel the way you do too. I have sort of been listening to everything and watching everything on youtube. It kinda helps. It also helps me to think that he is still here with us, in spirit. One thing I am finding it hard to do is listen to any other artist. I hope that changes soon.

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Reply #4 posted 05/03/16 3:20pm

DarlingKris

I'm with you on that. Hang in there hug

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Reply #5 posted 05/03/16 3:21pm

yellowday

Be sad about not seing him again! THAT is so sad!!!!!
Be happy that you met him.
Keep on loving him. You must not stop loving him just because he is dead.
That way he will stay with you. Cry and smile at the same time.
But acknowledge that you are bereft and have the right to feel sad.
Take your time.
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Reply #6 posted 05/03/16 3:26pm

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I'm still having a hard time........... cry

Edmonton, AB - canada

Ohh purple joy oh purple bliss oh purple rapture!
REAL MUSIC by REAL MUSICIANS - Prince
"I kind of wish there was a reason for Prince to make the site crash more" ~~ Ben
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Reply #7 posted 05/03/16 3:45pm

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I understand. At least you can draw some comfort from his music. The only thing I have listened to is Gold because it comforts me. Even that makes me cry and I have only been able to listen to it a couple of times. I can't listen or watch anything else because it stings reaaaallly bad. But hang in there darling. It is so special that you got to go on stage with him. I wish I could have had that opportunity. You are blessed. I feel like so much of my life depended on him as well, but my Mother is helping me put things into perspective. She said, you can't put all your faith and hope into people. Why? Because they are HUMAN. They dissapoint you, make you cry, make you laugh,get you through bad times, and they leave this earth. They were not meant to stay here. It was SO HARD to hear because I had a lot of dreams that depended on him. And NEVER expected it to be THIS soon. But life has to go on. We ALL have a purpose in this world. Even though it is hard to see. I keep telling myself these things hoping that one day they will stick. Everytime I think I'm okay, I breakdown. I even broke down DURING an important audition yesterday. My first time singing since... U know. I'm still hurt but hope is all we have. It is either that or die. And We can't leave until we make a difference. Please keep up the hope. I'm trying to practice what I preach but it's hard. Trust me, it will get better. You're going to experience so many beautiful things in life. It's just hard to see past the clouds right now. eye know.... :cry:

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Reply #8 posted 05/03/16 4:13pm

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HeavenMustBNear said:

I understand. At least you can draw some comfort from his music. The only thing I have listened to is Gold because it comforts me. Even that makes me cry and I have only been able to listen to it a couple of times. I can't listen or watch anything else because it stings reaaaallly bad. But hang in there darling. It is so special that you got to go on stage with him. I wish I could have had that opportunity. You are blessed. I feel like so much of my life depended on him as well, but my Mother is helping me put things into perspective. She said, you can't put all your faith and hope into people. Why? Because they are HUMAN. They dissapoint you, make you cry, make you laugh,get you through bad times, and they leave this earth. They were not meant to stay here. It was SO HARD to hear because I had a lot of dreams that depended on him. And NEVER expected it to be THIS soon. But life has to go on. We ALL have a purpose in this world. Even though it is hard to see. I keep telling myself these things hoping that one day they will stick. Everytime I think I'm okay, I breakdown. I even broke down DURING an important audition yesterday. My first time singing since... U know. I'm still hurt but hope is all we have. It is either that or die. And We can't leave until we make a difference. Please keep up the hope. I'm trying to practice what I preach but it's hard. Trust me, it will get better. You're going to experience so many beautiful things in life. It's just hard to see past the clouds right now. eye know.... cry Lots of heart

Thank you so so so much, these words meant so much to me. I also have many dreams and I have had him as inspiration. I hope to be successful in life, and I hope I am able to acomplish my dreams. Thank you, it is hard to remember he was human, I wanted him to live forever, even though he was much older then I am.

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Reply #9 posted 05/03/16 4:26pm

CherryMoon57

I am sharing your pain, but trust that it will get better. Prince would have wanted us to be strong and happy, and to continue celebrating his music and his life even afterwards. I totally understand your feelings though and it has been particularly hard for me too. The memory of his stare, whilst he chose me in the crowd to go onstage, his hand taking mine whilst he guided me on the steps then onto the stage, his arm around my waist, and the memorable dance as well and his happy eyes whilst I was dancing. It was all so surreal at the time, and now his death feels even harder to believe. He was a wonderful artist and a beautiful human being in many aspects, and funny. We must deeply cherish that, but also honour him by continuing to be ourselves and flourish in our lives, just like he was himself and flourished throughout his music and his interactions with others. Let his love and inspiration help us through this, as we all connect with one another. hug

'Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter' Martin Luther King, Jr.
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Reply #10 posted 05/03/16 4:29pm

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mcknzlrk said:

HeavenMustBNear said:

I understand. At least you can draw some comfort from his music. The only thing I have listened to is Gold because it comforts me. Even that makes me cry and I have only been able to listen to it a couple of times. I can't listen or watch anything else because it stings reaaaallly bad. But hang in there darling. It is so special that you got to go on stage with him. I wish I could have had that opportunity. You are blessed. I feel like so much of my life depended on him as well, but my Mother is helping me put things into perspective. She said, you can't put all your faith and hope into people. Why? Because they are HUMAN. They dissapoint you, make you cry, make you laugh,get you through bad times, and they leave this earth. They were not meant to stay here. It was SO HARD to hear because I had a lot of dreams that depended on him. And NEVER expected it to be THIS soon. But life has to go on. We ALL have a purpose in this world. Even though it is hard to see. I keep telling myself these things hoping that one day they will stick. Everytime I think I'm okay, I breakdown. I even broke down DURING an important audition yesterday. My first time singing since... U know. I'm still hurt but hope is all we have. It is either that or die. And We can't leave until we make a difference. Please keep up the hope. I'm trying to practice what I preach but it's hard. Trust me, it will get better. You're going to experience so many beautiful things in life. It's just hard to see past the clouds right now. eye know.... cry Lots of heart

Thank you so so so much, these words meant so much to me. I also have many dreams and I have had him as inspiration. I hope to be successful in life, and I hope I am able to acomplish my dreams. Thank you, it is hard to remember he was human, I wanted him to live forever, even though he was much older then I am.

You are definitely not alone. We are also so very heartbroken, and miss him so much! I know how you feel.

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Reply #11 posted 05/03/16 4:29pm

SteelPulse1

Keep talking it out dont hold back. Your not alone. A good portion of artists I loved are gone. Yes it sucks ...

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Reply #12 posted 05/03/16 4:49pm

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For some reason, watching this live version of The Love We Make has been making me feel better. https://www.youtube.com/w...fRRSdRhfRA

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Reply #13 posted 05/03/16 4:55pm

Genesia

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You never will live in a world without Prince. His soul is still here - in his music.
We don’t mourn artists because we knew them. We mourn them because they helped us know ourselves.
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Reply #14 posted 05/03/16 5:43pm

mcknzlrk

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Thank you everyone. rainbo

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Reply #15 posted 05/03/16 6:18pm

sumtymes

I asked God to help me get through this one after my daughter broke the news to me the day Prince passed. I dropped to my knees and cried. I said Oh No! My heart broke as my soul revisited the day I lost my sweet Mom. Similar grief swept over me. Later that day we walked in the rain searching for purple music and found it at a Downtown club. The gem 7 blared through the night reminding me of that tunes power and majesty. I reached out to my brothers as we remembered Prince. I say all of this to share to shed tears and to thank all of you for your encouragement and Purple Passion.
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Reply #16 posted 05/03/16 6:19pm

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Ur not alone man, hang in there ... I too am still sad beyond words broken

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Reply #17 posted 05/03/16 6:23pm

xRachx

You're not alone. This is how I feel. Deep despair.
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Reply #18 posted 05/03/16 6:26pm

farnorth

It is an incredible loss. I've listened to Prince almost every day for the past 30 years, and now he is gone. The finality of death is so deeply painful.

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Reply #19 posted 05/03/16 6:31pm

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mcknzlrk said:

I have finally started to go through all of my Prince albums and upload the ones I havent had on my iPod to my computer, then I found an array of interviews and preformances I have had hidden on a hard drive, and I watched them. I am filled with utter despair and dread. I don't want to live in a world without Prince. He helped me immensley growing up and into adulthood and seeing him and dancing with him on stage when I was fifteen was the best thing that has ever happened to me. I am so heartbroken, how are you coping with this? I know I am not the only one. Every day that passes is hurting more, its not getting any better. Will this be the only way I can listen to his music? Will I ever be able to see his face again without crying? It scares me.

I think you are going to go through a time of extemely hard grief and than slowly come out of it. It's like a breakup, but deeper because it is the loss of an imaginary friend, a guide, a role model, and just an icon of fun, a presence you imagine shading your whole outlook.

But that's not to say the pain and depression is intense. you just need to write down and remember that you will come out of it. Even if it doesn't seem like it now.

You aren't alone in these feelings. We are with you.

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Reply #20 posted 05/03/16 6:33pm

isobelfq

understand. Every time I think it gets better I fall back and start crying again. The pain is so bad and I miss him so much. The worse part was when my shaman friend told me that Prince wasn't going to be reincarnated because his journey was over. I know that should make me happy but all it does is fill me with deep, deep dispair and agonizing sadness. i know it's selfish but i want my man HERE! HERE HERE HERE! I just...I miss him so much. And I'm just going to go ahead and do it...How could he just leave us standing alone in a world that's so cold?

Join me under the waterfall
Climb the rainbow tree

love is my color when I am shown love in return
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Reply #21 posted 05/03/16 6:35pm

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hug

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Reply #22 posted 05/03/16 7:24pm

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I cried last week when I was watching Purple Rain on Vh1.

It just breaks my heart to think that he is physically gone from this world. I feel like I took him for granted when he was alive. I thought he would be here for another twenty years.

But he will never be spiritually gone! His presence will be within our hearts forever. I am being grateful that I will always have his music that I have loved for so many years.

Focus on your other passions in life like work and family. You will make it out okay and one day you will be able to listen to his music and SMILE!

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Reply #23 posted 05/03/16 7:33pm

motherfunka

Genesia said:

You never will live in a world without Prince. His soul is still here - in his music.

So true! I heard someone say "the day the music died". Prince's music will never die. I'm so thankful for the vast amount of music we have. It has been incredibly healing for me.

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Reply #24 posted 05/03/16 7:33pm

beacheemom

I'm so sorry you're hurting. I know it's been hard; I've cried every day since his passing. I just can't grasp most of it, but the one thing that does give me peace about his too soon departure from this earth? Him being reunited with his baby boy.
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Reply #25 posted 05/03/16 8:47pm

molissab

It is great to have a group that understands. Immediately following his passing, I listened to his music. But since listening to the catalog in alphabetical order on Minnesota's public radio station, The Current, I have not been able to listen to anything.

I always said my brain was the happiest when listening to Prince. I just wonder if I am going to be able to listen to him again. It seems like the casual fan was sad for minute and has moved on to the next big celebrity story. My grief is deep and raw. And, I agree that each day has gotten a little worse.

I am going with friends to see Purple Rain on Friday. I am not even a little excited. In fact, I am feeling dread for fear that I will cry the entire time. It just hurts!

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Reply #26 posted 05/03/16 9:23pm

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I'm still feeling the loss more than I care to admit. I feel like I've lost time, can't get my MOJO back, hard time meeting my responsibilities. I stayed up late last night and forced myself to listen to his music and watch his videos because I haven't been able to hear his voice or see his image without crying and feeling ill. So I thought I just have to do it. I thought I felt better at the time but I didn't sleep well and today there is a dark cloud hanging over me so I won't be trying that stunt again for awhile. I even went to the record store hoping to be something new and different to take my mind off it but nothing sparked my interest. I hope this too shall pass.
It's a hurtful place, the world, in and of itself. We don't need to add to it. We all need one another. ~ PRN
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Reply #27 posted 05/03/16 10:38pm

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molissab said:

It is great to have a group that understands. Immediately following his passing, I listened to his music. But since listening to the catalog in alphabetical order on Minnesota's public radio station, The Current, I have not been able to listen to anything.



I always said my brain was the happiest when listening to Prince. I just wonder if I am going to be able to listen to him again. It seems like the casual fan was sad for minute and has moved on to the next big celebrity story. My grief is deep and raw. And, I agree that each day has gotten a little worse.



I am going with friends to see Purple Rain on Friday. I am not even a little excited. In fact, I am feeling dread for fear that I will cry the entire time. It just hurts!


I am so sorry your hurting, even though I will admit it feels much less lonely knowing so many other people are feeling immense pain from this huge loss. I haven't been able to stop crying all day until just about an hour ago, even though if I let my mind wander I start up again. I had been ok for a few days, only crying a few times, but all of a sudden it's sobbing and uncontrollable sadness, feels worse today then the day he died, how that's possible I don't know.
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Reply #28 posted 05/03/16 10:41pm

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sonshine said:

I'm still feeling the loss more than I care to admit. I feel like I've lost time, can't get my MOJO back, hard time meeting my responsibilities. I stayed up late last night and forced myself to listen to his music and watch his videos because I haven't been able to hear his voice or see his image without crying and feeling ill. So I thought I just have to do it. I thought I felt better at the time but I didn't sleep well and today there is a dark cloud hanging over me so I won't be trying that stunt again for awhile. I even went to the record store hoping to be something new and different to take my mind off it but nothing sparked my interest. I hope this too shall pass.

Stay strong, I am so thankful I am not alone. Coming back to the org after a long hiatus is helping so much because of words like yours, I'm not alone and I feel it.
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Reply #29 posted 05/03/16 11:20pm

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farnorth said:

It is an incredible loss. I've listened to Prince almost every day for the past 30 years, and now he is gone. The finality of death is so deeply painful.

Migh, migh Is that possible to listen to him that much? smile

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