I don't feel the need to use any other than my own energy to attract what i want, i'm discerning about attracting only those alike in the light-mind. Never needed to have a crystal ball. I prefer the future to be God's surprise for me, stop interfering and let Him give me what He wants. I have my Runes in my pocket warming up to tell me what the delay is about my getting over there? There are obstacles and i would like to understand why it is necessary. I never had any ambition to visit there before. Going anywhere was not on my agenda. The old contented cow was happy to stay here and rot. I'm sure no one can comprehend why i don't want more than i have. I can't use it and i can't stand dusting useless crap. It's not altruism dopey it's laziness. All that clutter is wasting time needing to be cleaned. What am i a slave to the dirt? Not this old little white gin. Too smart to be conned into wanting more that i won't ever need. This here has gobbled up two and a half years of my life. I wonder how i ever lived without it. The only thing that is missing in my life is the right reason to do this for. I can give it whatever purpose i wish it's just not my desire. Until i find another reason i must assume it's intended purpose is my original one, to let him know he's appreciated. I hope i've given everyone an insight into the myriad uses of music. Nice one, Jera. Harvest, Full Cycle, One year. Fruitful outcomes. I will not force this, i have some more ground work to do. I have the citizen application to lodge. I got it printed out today. I have to pay a fee and they send it in two weeks. There is another one i don't know about so i don't know how to apply. The other conclusion is that i am intended to work from home and if i can't work at home i can't work. I don't like galavanting then working. I live and do work anytime. U are more aware of what i have done being objective about such things. This is venting and brainstorming ways around life to help make it nutritious and balanced. Big word that in gov. today, balance. I swear they read my page here. I set up the accounts for the Year of the Tree in 82/3 one of the runs on the scoreboard. I had Matthew. He was 2. Those that could do, did and those that had other fish to fry did their own thing. I was the Managing Director of an electrical contracting company chief cook and bottle washer. Suited me to a tea. I have to work for free voluntarily no one can afford me otherwise. The SMF is loftier than all get out. I have worked to grow me up to be of use to God. Here i am, use me. How do i say i'm ruined for other men. This is making it very easy to immerse myself in. I can't really let fly here though i'd offend too many people, hence the need to keep my privacy. I've toned it down. It's a bit hard though if people keep following because of him. I'm not that interesting really. Inside my head well that's a different matter. The twitter thing allows people to follow i don't understand why they oh, of course, him. I feel like getting if off. It's overwhelming with the TBI. Oh yes, this is a way i am keeping a check on my brain function and see if the little bleeds are affecting my motor functions. The infections tend to clog my head up and then it makes it ache. I cleared one whole side just manipulating all the right side of my scalp. I also had about 1000mg of chewable vitamin c to handle the cramps. All people in their 50s go through adjusting to various limitations they have from accummulated injuries. 'U know.' well if only it was that simple. I recall being very annoyed with my body for betraying me like that the little twit. By the time i got into my 60s i forgot to count anymore, nah, i can't remember day to day and i never try either. I keep waking up. It's him. I told u he's ruined me for other men, boring twits. I can't cope. What does a writer require then and would have a hard time getting with someone like him around? U see the dilema. Mind u i have him screaming away in the headphones now. This isn't really serious writing though. It could be just me i notice when i am using the arrows or sometimes the backspace for correction various things change on the tool bar as if i'm activating something by too many backspaces or something. So it had to happen sooner than later, 'when she walked into the party and dared me to live up to her dreams.' i tried phoning, no answer. Not engaged, it rang it just didn't answer. I do scream too. Not to this one i'm learning it. It's in the shuffle, it's going to catch me by surprise and i'll be in the right frame of mind and because it's my favorite now until the next treasure. They should be coming out in platignum. Mmm. God i'm so hooked, 'Hardrocklover.' oh he's very cruel. U just don't expect it and then it's out and it's another shocker. I mean it's stunning he's so wonderfully consistent. I make glass ring when i scream. He's the only one that has made me scream ever, deliberately. So good, he's done it on purpose to make me suffer. It's that impact of the guitars. That big bass drum has affect too. Party hard like u wouldn't believe and i mean dance like it's gotta hurt me. It will the next day but i don't care if that music has the right thing at the right time i gotta dance. Lucky i make so much of my life. Something people don't understand with brain injury, lies to me are like a punch in the belly. It's the same as physical assault. I can't be bothered lying, it means i haven't lived right. There isn't anyone on this planet important enough to me, to lie to or for. We brain injured just don't hold with that crap anyway. I've got a good thing going here why would i want to ruin it. Why would i want more i can barely cope with what i have already. I am all i need to be, i don't have anything to prove i'm too content with it to bother. I'm very embarassed i haven't had this travel thing done. Those twerps are up there on the tool bar. Why are they trending and what do they have to show me for. I don't have any medicine for men that keep doing the same routine because they don't have the minds of their own to make up, they let other men make them up for them and cop the crap for it. They should grow up and act their age. Trending right up their own a/holes i hope. I won't be going anywhere i'm stuck here and i'm ok with that. I was ok before nothing has changed that much. I have to go and see my brother soon. It has been too long. Family is the legitimate reason i have to take off. I can't handle any more. I'm getting a warning about high disk usage in a machine with a dual core oh really? Do u understand if i can't work at home i'm not working. I don't want to travel to work. I don't like going out. I like all my equipment at home. My home is a generator. I don't like over doing the socializing i'm not friendly anymore. I'm only friendly when i go shopping to get good service. I limit my exposure to manage more Love than i really feel for humanity as a whole. The weak and vulnerable i feel very sorry for, i'm not looking forward to being one of them. I made up my own religion i don't recruit, me and God are quite happy thanks. I don't want anyone elses it would mean giving up all of the Spirit world and the Totems and that Raven that found me cleaning tool. I won't do without all of God's little helpers. I am what i am because of them all. Ok i'll tell u, I had lost it for a week nearly. I stressed over it at first, it cleans the pipe out well. I'd focus in and get very tense but not always sometimes i manage to center my energy and let it go, i called out loud to Raven to find it for me please, if it's not too much trouble. I let it go and used another safety pin most unhappily too. I walked outside one day and something made me look down and there is was. Right in front of me as if the Raven had dropped it there. I of course said thank u. I kept trying to stress over it, i wouldn't let me. I kept reminding me it would hamper Raven to tighten up on this quest. A little exercise in trust for me. I find it very grounding 1st American culture. I'm at home in it. Other ones don't chime but i enjoy the KJV bible, especially old Solomon. I like Proverbs. I copied all my favorites out. He's a cranky old git in Ecclesiastes or one like that, he credits Wisdom as being a woman, in Proverbs, i copied them out of course. i Love old Sol. This was the one marking the spot in my Gideons, Proverb 8:22 On Wisdom. The God(I refuse to call the Exalted One by a lowly secular title, always God) possessed me in the beginning of His way before His works of old: I was set up from everlasting from the beginning or ever the Earth was.Chapter 8, bawling my eyes out, i had to laugh at that. Doth not Wisdom cry? and understanding put forth her voice? 2, She standeth in the top of high places by the way in places of the paths. 3. She crieth at the gates, at the entry of the city, at the coming in at the doors. 4. Unto you, O men i call; and my voice is to the sons of man. Ok that's enough, u get the drift. One for the ladies. God bless the lad. Don't get me started about the equal pay for women thing here. Not my problem it's my daughters, hard to plead her case when she shuns me. So u see how fragile i am over my family situation. I don't know what to do about the ones here and i haven't seen the ones in uk for a long time. I'm an emotional wreck just now. I might just put 'Hardrocklover.' on repeat. I can't believe he's got me pegged so well. Mind u i have kinda been raving on for a long while, i don't need to be a mystery it pleases me on occasion, not here, i've spilled my guts for the sake of giving back a few examples of what i've used America for and how effective that has been. Rightyho that's enough i've blown up ur skirt enough for one night. To u all in deep gratitude for this grant Infinite and eternal peace, joy and Love, take care, God Bless and Be Well.xxxxx

I understand.

lindamsmith1133 said:

I don't feel the need to use any other than my own energy to attract what i want, i'm discerning about attracting only those alike in the light-mind. Never needed to have a crystal ball. I prefer the future to be God's surprise for me, stop interfering and let Him give me what He wants. I have my Runes in my pocket warming up to tell me what the delay is about my getting over there? There are obstacles and i would like to understand why it is necessary. I never had any ambition to visit there before. Going anywhere was not on my agenda. The old contented cow was happy to stay here and rot. I'm sure no one can comprehend why i don't want more than i have. I can't use it and i can't stand dusting useless crap. It's not altruism dopey it's laziness. All that clutter is wasting time needing to be cleaned. What am i a slave to the dirt? Not this old little white gin. Too smart to be conned into wanting more that i won't ever need. This here has gobbled up two and a half years of my life. I wonder how i ever lived without it. The only thing that is missing in my life is the right reason to do this for. I can give it whatever purpose i wish it's just not my desire. Until i find another reason i must assume it's intended purpose is my original one, to let him know he's appreciated. I hope i've given everyone an insight into the myriad uses of music. Nice one, Jera. Harvest, Full Cycle, One year. Fruitful outcomes. I will not force this, i have some more ground work to do. I have the citizen application to lodge. I got it printed out today. I have to pay a fee and they send it in two weeks. There is another one i don't know about so i don't know how to apply. The other conclusion is that i am intended to work from home and if i can't work at home i can't work. I don't like galavanting then working. I live and do work anytime. U are more aware of what i have done being objective about such things. This is venting and brainstorming ways around life to help make it nutritious and balanced. Big word that in gov. today, balance. I swear they read my page here. I set up the accounts for the Year of the Tree in 82/3 one of the runs on the scoreboard. I had Matthew. He was 2. Those that could do, did and those that had other fish to fry did their own thing. I was the Managing Director of an electrical contracting company chief cook and bottle washer. Suited me to a tea. I have to work for free voluntarily no one can afford me otherwise. The SMF is loftier than all get out. I have worked to grow me up to be of use to God. Here i am, use me. How do i say i'm ruined for other men. This is making it very easy to immerse myself in. I can't really let fly here though i'd offend too many people, hence the need to keep my privacy. I've toned it down. It's a bit hard though if people keep following because of him. I'm not that interesting really. Inside my head well that's a different matter. The twitter thing allows people to follow i don't understand why they oh, of course, him. I feel like getting if off. It's overwhelming with the TBI. Oh yes, this is a way i am keeping a check on my brain function and see if the little bleeds are affecting my motor functions. The infections tend to clog my head up and then it makes it ache. I cleared one whole side just manipulating all the right side of my scalp. I also had about 1000mg of chewable vitamin c to handle the cramps. All people in their 50s go through adjusting to various limitations they have from accummulated injuries. 'U know.' well if only it was that simple. I recall being very annoyed with my body for betraying me like that the little twit. By the time i got into my 60s i forgot to count anymore, nah, i can't remember day to day and i never try either. I keep waking up. It's him. I told u he's ruined me for other men, boring twits. I can't cope. What does a writer require then and would have a hard time getting with someone like him around? U see the dilema. Mind u i have him screaming away in the headphones now. This isn't really serious writing though. It could be just me i notice when i am using the arrows or sometimes the backspace for correction various things change on the tool bar as if i'm activating something by too many backspaces or something. So it had to happen sooner than later, 'when she walked into the party and dared me to live up to her dreams.' i tried phoning, no answer. Not engaged, it rang it just didn't answer. I do scream too. Not to this one i'm learning it. It's in the shuffle, it's going to catch me by surprise and i'll be in the right frame of mind and because it's my favorite now until the next treasure. They should be coming out in platignum. Mmm. God i'm so hooked, 'Hardrocklover.' oh he's very cruel. U just don't expect it and then it's out and it's another shocker. I mean it's stunning he's so wonderfully consistent. I make glass ring when i scream. He's the only one that has made me scream ever, deliberately. So good, he's done it on purpose to make me suffer. It's that impact of the guitars. That big bass drum has affect too. Party hard like u wouldn't believe and i mean dance like it's gotta hurt me. It will the next day but i don't care if that music has the right thing at the right time i gotta dance. Lucky i make so much of my life. Something people don't understand with brain injury, lies to me are like a punch in the belly. It's the same as physical assault. I can't be bothered lying, it means i haven't lived right. There isn't anyone on this planet important enough to me, to lie to or for. We brain injured just don't hold with that crap anyway. I've got a good thing going here why would i want to ruin it. Why would i want more i can barely cope with what i have already. I am all i need to be, i don't have anything to prove i'm too content with it to bother. I'm very embarassed i haven't had this travel thing done. Those twerps are up there on the tool bar. Why are they trending and what do they have to show me for. I don't have any medicine for men that keep doing the same routine because they don't have the minds of their own to make up, they let other men make them up for them and cop the crap for it. They should grow up and act their age. Trending right up their own a/holes i hope. I won't be going anywhere i'm stuck here and i'm ok with that. I was ok before nothing has changed that much. I have to go and see my brother soon. It has been too long. Family is the legitimate reason i have to take off. I can't handle any more. I'm getting a warning about high disk usage in a machine with a dual core oh really? Do u understand if i can't work at home i'm not working. I don't want to travel to work. I don't like going out. I like all my equipment at home. My home is a generator. I don't like over doing the socializing i'm not friendly anymore. I'm only friendly when i go shopping to get good service. I limit my exposure to manage more Love than i really feel for humanity as a whole. The weak and vulnerable i feel very sorry for, i'm not looking forward to being one of them. I made up my own religion i don't recruit, me and God are quite happy thanks. I don't want anyone elses it would mean giving up all of the Spirit world and the Totems and that Raven that found me cleaning tool. I won't do without all of God's little helpers. I am what i am because of them all. Ok i'll tell u, I had lost it for a week nearly. I stressed over it at first, it cleans the pipe out well. I'd focus in and get very tense but not always sometimes i manage to center my energy and let it go, i called out loud to Raven to find it for me please, if it's not too much trouble. I let it go and used another safety pin most unhappily too. I walked outside one day and something made me look down and there is was. Right in front of me as if the Raven had dropped it there. I of course said thank u. I kept trying to stress over it, i wouldn't let me. I kept reminding me it would hamper Raven to tighten up on this quest. A little exercise in trust for me. I find it very grounding 1st American culture. I'm at home in it. Other ones don't chime but i enjoy the KJV bible, especially old Solomon. I like Proverbs. I copied all my favorites out. He's a cranky old git in Ecclesiastes or one like that, he credits Wisdom as being a woman, in Proverbs, i copied them out of course. i Love old Sol. This was the one marking the spot in my Gideons, Proverb 8:22 On Wisdom. The God(I refuse to call the Exalted One by a lowly secular title, always God) possessed me in the beginning of His way before His works of old: I was set up from everlasting from the beginning or ever the Earth was.Chapter 8, bawling my eyes out, i had to laugh at that. Doth not Wisdom cry? and understanding put forth her voice? 2, She standeth in the top of high places by the way in places of the paths. 3. She crieth at the gates, at the entry of the city, at the coming in at the doors. 4. Unto you, O men i call; and my voice is to the sons of man. Ok that's enough, u get the drift. One for the ladies. God bless the lad. Don't get me started about the equal pay for women thing here. Not my problem it's my daughters, hard to plead her case when she shuns me. So u see how fragile i am over my family situation. I don't know what to do about the ones here and i haven't seen the ones in uk for a long time. I'm an emotional wreck just now. I might just put 'Hardrocklover.' on repeat. I can't believe he's got me pegged so well. Mind u i have kinda been raving on for a long while, i don't need to be a mystery it pleases me on occasion, not here, i've spilled my guts for the sake of giving back a few examples of what i've used America for and how effective that has been. Rightyho that's enough i've blown up ur skirt enough for one night. To u all in deep gratitude for this grant Infinite and eternal peace, joy and Love, take care, God Bless and Be Well.xxxxx

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