It was a subject at my school, Primary and Secondary. It's not enough to know the language it is necessary to make sure children fully comprehend. I look and look, i'm not satisfied with any of the answers. I have to find the precise one to press for change. America gave me something on top of the stuff i've told u all about, mind sets, strategies and mental tools to guarantee i can Master anything i am interested in. I have to get there even if i have to crawl. I don't have to stress over it. I do so like the prospect of having my mind well and truly blown for once. I'm way too serious for my own good. I do my best to make jokes of it underneath it's just a giant yawn. I phoned the uk office, i have to do it, the application, online. I've got this issue with a venomous snake here just now. It ocurrs to me i have been cohabiting with these critters for 5 years now and it's worked ok. The only problem with i'm thinking up a name for him. Well i might as well he's a fixture now, Monty, nah, he's not a python. I know, 'Fang.' R.B.B., sounds like a baby. No, it's not butch enough. He so cute, he looks so at home, well he is i know, u know what i mean. I wonder how many years that line of snakes have been feeding on the baby lizards. Me lovely cockroach squad. How much of an animal? As natural as. I have a symbiotic relationship with the wildlife of a country miles away from home. U must know if i could i would be there now. I will have to wait another 6-8 weeks before the paperwork gets here. Meanwhile i'm on the phone to my brother in the uk after i've got a recharge in hand for the phone to cover the call. He has access to all the paperwork over there. I'll come up with something or just summon more patience than i've ever had in my life. U wouldn't believe how much i could lose it over it taking 6 months so far, those photos are now invalid because the dates expired. Surely all i need is an entry paper to uk. I have my birth certificate. Something will break the deadlock something is creating. It is the truth i did not ask my parents to bring me here and after so long it hasn't been a success for me. My Spirit has made the most of the experience i am grateful for that, i survived, yay. That doesn't please me. I would have done better. Something tells me this is what i was coming to all along, this point in time. I smudged myself today. I had the zigzag line across the left retina. Mums the word, losing words. Mumbling. A couple of waves passing over rather swoony. Something moving around. I saw a piece on the Catalyst program on tv about Traumatic Brain Injury. The horse, 'Custard' loved me or she would have kicked my head in and she didn't bless her, she loved me. It made me weep accepting that last week. 1 gram extra pressure and i wouldn't be getting off doing this. I would have had the kind of deficit this young lad had on the program. He was a teenager when he was in a car accident. It has changed his life profoundly. I am so fortunate and i'm sure i let God know how thankful i am, sometimes. Yes all in all this is really very sizzling hot. Well not right now, i might have to put a waistcoat on, my back is cold. See if that one will do. Actually i think the long vest isn't snug enough. It's a bit old as well. Plus it's a bloke's one(i might have nicked them off my son) not a female's, they make them too short for me. At least with a blokes u've got a bit to wrap around it. U know what i like about using the hair conditioner like a skin conditioner after a shower, it stops u feeling like tight skinned dried out. I only noticed because i left the rinsing of the hair conditioner off until after i've finished scrubbing, I Love those scrubber gloves, very exhilarating. U can tell i don't get to feel like that very often. I had to look it up. Well i'm getting very slack with the spelling. I'm not reading enough. I spelt one wrong the other day and then saw the right spelling. That really rattles my cage. They're at it in the roof space. That's the rodent cockroach squad. I eyeballed the moggy that keeps them under check too. It only takes a couple of weeks and it's on the trail. There's an acoustic one called 'Love', 'stop tripping on something that U've overheard, Love is winning without a word.' Then there's the other one, same sentiment. 'Making Love and music's the only thing worth fighting for.' This is Mother's work. Men go overboard. It was on the world news service about the Mothers patrolling over there. They did it in the Northern Territory i don't know if they still do. It breaks the cycle. It doesn't have to go on forever just as long as it takes to reclaim our lost generations of poor misguided children. U watch the change. I've always been into nature it filled my life up. Men were just handbags. There to carry stuff. I couldn't train any of them to do it though. Lazy twats. Not Prince, I Love watching him working himself up into a sweat. He puts it all out there.We've just got to be careful he doesn't turn himself inside out trying to keep doing it so hard. I haven't heard the new one. I'm not in a hurry. I'm delaying gratification, i'm trained to prolong the anticipation for the maximum pleasure. I know and i'm just talking about listening. I'm still delirious from the last two. Again, only the ones i know of. I don't want to think of all the ones i don't know of. OH yes and skiting about not being able to hear u unless i have tidal and then finding either i don't have the credit on the phone to access the ap. or it's not got here yet. What's new? My life has been one that has had plenty of lessons in forebearance. Don't rush, it's better this way. I will deal with the boffins if they need it, say the word. U know i'll go off. It's been a long time coming this. I want integrity in politics and business because if not we will take our bat and ball and go and play where they know how to act with integrity and stuff the rest of them, such is the 'new power generation'. We will form our own co-operatives and buy in bulk and under cut the dipsticks. Mothers are the best at this kind of organizing. Fathers can do the transport and distribution stuff, they'll work it out. There wasn't anything my Mother couldn't turn her hand to if she had to. I thought her the all powerful one. Dad was a God. I choke up thinking about them. Their generation lost all their teeth because of the wars. Hell hath no fury like my scorn. It is ready to land on those that make my Earth shake. U can all take it lightly, try taking it personally, it feels different when u think they are mucking up ur Earth for U. My work way back when has planted millions of trees. I'm invested. Holy guacamole, see that, i just opened the thingy, u got that right sugar. That's what's called attunement. Groovy. I enjoy it on the wotsy. I'm shocked it's got 17 minutes ago. I put that up there without looking at the phone. Thing is it could be anyone. That's spooky. Those flips are up there, trending for what, i don't want to know. It flattens my high. Now i want a smoke. The saddest part of it is it wouldn't matter what u did for some of these warring men they would still want to go and fight to prove they are men. In the race for life they are the losers. It will be better for the world when that generation of war mongers have carked. It's recognized that there is enough food in the world and the only trouble is getting to the ones that need it, passed the tripods that just want to cause pain and dominate. In the old days they were turned into eunuchs, now we all understand why. I know if i was being loved up i wouldn't be bothered by any of this, i'd let them all paddle their own canoes. I've two adult children that aren't married and having their own family. I'm torn for them. I'm doubtful i'll be a grandmother, being a Mother is hard enough. I've got a big enough ego from being a Great, great Aunt. Thrust upon me it was. I wonder about my bow, will i have to leave it here or will i get to go in the Olympics. The back yard is overgrown i haven't strung Noiro for weeks. Stretching it. I believe it's a gift i brought with me. I don't need to practice, I'm a natural. I didn't ask for this it just happens. I was told long ago by an older adept, 'anything u are attracted to u already have.' or possess. Attributes or skills she meant. If i'm interested in a subject i have knowledge of it from another life. Prince said it in a song, 'when u got it Babe, nothing comes too hard.' 'Got it.' meaning a gift. If u don't got a gift for it then it's going to be very hard work to make it look as good as he does it. The other thing that is crucial and Shirley Maclaine taught me this, it's in the timing and it's in the playing. Timing, well ask him, it's about time. The playing because when u've got the timing it looks like ur playing. One of the old reprobates Plato maybe, said, 'Life should be lived as play.' i believe he meant without guile. Watching my children i noticed they had neither guile nor bile. They never held grudges and they never set out to hurt each other. We all say it, pity they have to grow up. I'm off before freeze up. To u all in deep gratitude for this grant Infinite and eternal peace, joy and Love, take care, God Bless and Be Well.xxxxx