Faced with that choice what would urs be? There is where i am. This won't be long it can't be i haven't slept. I had a feeling i wouldn't and set the course that afternoon and then there was the news about the shootings. I stayed awake, too hyped up and way too sad. This was shown to me, that i would be doing this duty soon, i kept seeing Butterflies on everything. Note to self, when i see them they mean a group passing. Just imagine how wonderful that field of color is for them as they go over to the Light. Don't hold them down with ur sorrow. Lift them up with ur joy that they don't have to suffer here any more, ' like the fools they've left behind,' (us) will do. Say to urself, 'Free as a bird at last.' The only thing that will hold them down is the comforting of the relos too upset to set them free. My understanding is that u are wise in this. I kept it to 3 days of dropping my bundle all three deaths of my close family here. Weep buckets until u can't weep anymore and laugh at the funny things u remember about them, laugh alot and aloud. The bigger picture is they all agreed to go over at the same time in this manner to have a very profound effect on us here left to come to terms with the manner of their passing. Our own Higher selves understand and accept this our little ones we have to be kind to. I recharged the two devices and found out the two youngsters, girls, in the telco aren't in to tweeting yet, oh my goodness has the silver surfer got an ego tonight! Showed them too, much impressed. So there! I mean, i know i'm hopeless yet but u know i'm going to improve with time. I'm not in any hurry, oh, by the way, i'm picking up a wigwam on the way through, i might camp over a while. I might never leave ever, u never can tell. I'll work for me supper. I know u lot one whiff of a good idea or several and i'm done for, i'll never get away. I'll indulge u. I would be my greatest pleasure. I don't like to see u suffering. There's four or more pages in the journal. Verse too. I had expected something like that. I was astounded at the tweet the day before. I wouldn't be wanting to see the images beforehand. I see the Butterflies and others see the event. Then there was the other apprehension, about 'people going on about it like it's only just got bad, like it hasn't been happening for years.' words to that effect. I watched a show on the local national about 20s and 30 somethings with one or more body image issues. Like us all. The boys got on and dealt with the issue and the girls oh, 's truth, sad very sad, another generation of females hung up because they don't have the body they see as their ideal (never mind how men regard them i mean to say, dopey twits) so they over do the diet preps and then lay all this guilt on themselves for not measuring up. Or, it's the classic i'll delay really addressing this problem because them maybe science with come up with a preparation that will allow them to suspend their own will power and allow them to really hammer themselves. Dear oh dear, girls really, get a grip. I've had the same problems with my weight, up and down, thank God for Louise L Hay's affirmation, 'I have a happy slender body.' i'd be stuffed without it. Oh i pig out and then do a day telling me body to deliver the goods or else i starve it. I like the Katherine Hepburn tactic, 2 days eating and one day fasting. I like that. Or i just have all day snacks. Very naughty. Oh, what's the only thing wrong with eating grapes. Well don't forget and don't go out until they have done the job. I was sure i'd eaten something with gluten, nah, just the flippin' grapes, dopey git. That was good for a few pounds i hope! The other sneaky one is toothache, that takes a few pounds off too. Isn't it a medieval form of torture a 'pin wheel'? I'm sure they used to string people up on them and then set fire crackers off around the circumference. Or was that the Catherine wheel? That would take up to lunchtime what's after that? The other thing i noticed i'm being blocked from getting toasted too. Not a whiff of a buzz. I should be but it won't and this Butterfly duty is the reason i feel. They're all getting together to do the fly through. I just have to wait while they comfort those grieving the most and then we're up, up and away. I'll know, i won't be able to keep my eyes open. I was hoping this would make me bog eyed sooner, no, not quite this is just as bad for hyping me up, it's exciting still. I like liquorice all sorts, i don't eat them but i recall them from my childhood and still hanker for the very sugary sweets, i won't have, any too may artificial colors. Too sugary and not my fave anymore except the memory. I know it sounds weird the 'Sign of the Times.' the album still is new to me. It could take a while it's on the shuffle going through 601 others. Honest to God this to me is really the best thing, not sliced bread, full of gluten that attacks u later in life. This narrow little orbit is sensational. It could blow fuses if it gets any more fascinating. I mean this is wonderful. My present, my now is well, 'far out' i always say, Brussel sprout. Usually when i'm alone, 'far out Brussel sprout', i've been amazed by something. So what was i saying about the youngsters, 'delaying living', i'll have a better life when i do this, or that or grow a third breast. Holy suffering Moses they haven't been taught anything either in school or at home if this is still going on. Those schools ain't worth their funding then. All my teachers were University graduates. What prick decided they could lower the standard since then aye? Stand them up against a wall and whip them. Cheeky mongrel sons of mongrels. I won't pretend that women here had anything to do with the state of education here, we all know the truth, social experiments have been going on for decades and we are dealing with the results large scale now, how's that u highly educated swines. They have produced the same kind of society they grew up in with the same weaknesses we can see. 'The poor will always be with us.' it says, i wonder why. Then how about that other tweet, complaining like this has all crap only happened yesterday.' So today we get a directive from the holy watsit about climate change, hello, like haven't we been on about this crap for the last 30, 40, or in some cases 50 years, they've all had there head so far down in the trough they couldn't see the filth in the sky. Then makes out it's all our responsibility, oh stfu sanctimonious old fart. This is not new and it's about bloody time they pulled their fingers out of whatever orifice they have had it stuck in and started supplying their own alternative energy for their flock, the rest of us won't have to do all the heavy lifting for them anymore. There, i'm done. To u all in deep gratitude for this grant Infinite and eternal peace, joy and Love, take care, God Bless and Be Well.xxxxx