What a beautiful remembrance. In your pain, be gentle with yourself as your mother would never hold anything against you that you may be holding against yourself (regrets). You did the best given the situation and your love for her was probably the most important thing in her life

~ ===== In Memoriam Rest In Peace ===== ~

You & your family have my sincere condolences & prayers.

Rex

http://storm-nation.blogspot.com/2010_02_01_archive

My prayers to you and your family. Your tribute was beautiful! I am sure your mother is with Jesus, and smiling down on you from Heaven.

every day people dies, people that may be anonymous to the 99,9% of the planet, but who are THE MOST SPECIAL person to someone, or to several people

your mother seemed like a huge support in your life, we are in this planet to savour the joy of life and companionship, but also the pain of death and loss; please, stay strong, you must battle the pain

she was a good woman in life and she's in a better place now

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So very sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry for your loss.

God Be With You

Lammastide said:

RobotDevil, whatever the nature of our eternal existence, I'm convinced that two of the ways in which we live beyond death are through the memories we leave behind and through those things that others, at our influence, might continue to pay forward.

That said, what an utterly gorgeous foundation of love, of hope, of willingness to live and let live your mom seems to have established! After your time of grieving -- and take all the time you need -- what beautiful things will you choose to do with that foundation?

Hugs to you. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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Ditto. (Lammastide is so darn eloquent, I couldn't possible put my feelings into better words.)

Hi RobotDevil,

I am going through this now with my dad. I am also 46 and he is 70 and he had a major stroke in January that left him severely disabled. He's not gone but could go anytime and I had a scare last month when he went unconscious for day. That was the deepest grief I have ever felt in my life, when I thought I'd lost him and would never be able to talk to him again. Since then I am thinking very deeply about my dad and the love he showed me, especially in my youth when we were very close. And of the times when things seemed fine. I now see that old ordinary life as a kind of loving ceremony.

So I am resonating with your words and your deep love and connectedness with your mom. Your hearts were clearly so deeply connected, and you'll continue to feel her support and love.

In my tradition, a great sage once described death as "walking into another room". Maybe that helps you, I don't know. It helps me to think of death as another room, nearby. These bodies are temporary and not who we are. We wear them for a time. Love surpasses time and space, love is god, god is love, isn't that what Prince says.

hbo

I am so sorry for your loss.

i am so sorry for your loss, i am praying for you during this difficult time. my mom passed away in feb. of this year, it's a pain i have never felt so deeply in my life. i will forever miss her. if you need to talk, feel free to send me an orgnote.

Thank you to each of you for your prayers, words of comfort, hugs and good thoughts. I feel like I"m walking around in a daze most of the time, like I'm now living a foreign world..

Please know how much every comment here has meant to me. Thank you.

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Roz?

If it is or not..sorry and belated condolences..may she rest in heavenly peace!

respects due..

Tariq

ps what a lovely and precious letter of tribute you put down..beautiful.

I am sorry to hear that. All the best to you and know that your Org family is here for you.

Ugh, I hate to hear of anyone losing their mother. I think it is in most cases the hardest loss of all. I was 42 when I lost my mother. She was 76 and very fit. She was crossing the street in front of her church and got hit by a truck. I truly was not expected to lose her. (I had just had a daughter 21 months earlier, my mothers first and only grandchild. I had begun to see a side of my mother I had never known, a beautiful side too).

Anyway, reading your story brings back how really mindblowing losing your mother can be and I don't think it is ever at the right time and in the right way. I too believe that we are constantly connected to our love ones even after they die. Most religions all over the world believe that. I wish you comfort in this tough time.